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I wanted to stay home tonight but I made myself go for a post show social dinner gathering. "Good for future networking", I told myself. It was also polite.

Now I feel horrible.
Because I felt so out of place and I still couldn't do anything to change it. I'm losing what little people skills I have!
I felt so horrible, I ended up canceling a clubbing appointment with a friend and I feel so bad but I just couldn't go. *Sorry babe. My bad, I'll make it up to you ok?*

Last day of show tomorrow. I'm so tired.

Why am I having such depressing thoughts???

Yells at myself: You have got to CHEER UP, girl! No more depressed posts okay?? OKAY!