Important Notes

Personal notes to myself:-

I shall work extra hard until April.
After which I shall aim to go for a good long holiday in Japan.


Crossroad Question:-

Should I carry on dancing? or should I go back to studying?
I shall put much thought into this...

B.I.G

B.I.G

Jim Beam Heats 2

Love ya guys loads!

Video will be up soon...I got it from Alex.

Big Hug

This is so random but I like Spontaneous Big Hugs.

It's like a really pleasant surprise. Hee!

Happiness

Think I was high from the competition last night. Came up with 2 sets of uber cool choreography for class today. Felt really good dancing it. But I think I got too caught up and taught a little too fast haha...sorry peoples! Think of it as a good challenge ey?

Chilled out with a friend after class.

Had some CNY Gambling fun at another friends house after.

Slept 3 hours and was really really stoned by 11pm but I felt really happy today.

Am in a really light hearted and relaxed mood. I feel good.

Great lead in to a relaxing Sunday holed up at home watching Heroes while eating Pudding! haha!

Jim Beam Tastes Horrible!

We came in 2nd Place.

Not much feeling at this point. The 50% audience voting turned me off even before the competition started. During the briefing last week, it was said audience voting was gonna take a small percentage. Then they bombard us today with 50%. How small is 50%? Its phreaking half of the total result!

It felt like they just wanted to make money out of the voting because you only get voting coupons when you purchase a jug or bottle of Jim Beam. It somehow feels like the results boiled down to who has more "rich, drinking" supporters.

At that point, I already stopped bothering about the results and more of putting up a good performance. So, in terms of good performance, I think the team came through and we did good. We were tight and that's what makes me glad.

As for 2nd placing and not much feeling...its because I've been 2nd place all my dance life.

"I'm getting used to it!" but not in a good way. I'm not disappointed but neither am I happy.
Just no feelings whatsoever.

Friends tell me its not going to be always 2nd and 1st will come. Well....I hope it comes soon and it comes BIG. One BIG amazing time. That's all i'm asking for.

Other then that...I'm feeling pretty fine.

On another note, Congratulations to (NRA) In da house for coming in 1st for Jim Beam. You guys were very tight as well! You beat us to it this time, Alex!!! Next time, we're taking over! Ha!

B.I.G

Busy....
Hectic...
Pressed for time......about sums up my CNY this year.

-IMPT-

Event: Jim Beam Dance Finals
Venue: Dbl-O, Robertson Walk
Time: 8pm until late
*Free Entry before 10pm. Pre-Party for Contestants and Supporters from 8pm to 10pm*

Holla B.I.G to the door bitch to gain entry. Minimum Age Limit 18.

Be there. Scream.

Small talk

Chinese New Year is a great holiday, but personally, i find making small talk with people you meet only once a year rather tough. You have to try to remember what they do or mentioned last year so you can carry on a conversation...because with CNY signifying happy reunions and gatherings, it is rather rude if you just sat at one small corner acting all anti-social.

The questions usually are quite the same every year so unless you know the person on a more personal level or you chance upon a common interest, topics run out fast....and here i shall confess! ...when the silence gets awkward, I move off by hastily excusing myself to go to the toilet. =P

Because I warm up slowly to people, hitting it off with someone on the first conversation is like really rare for me. (But I'm cordial enough ok? For those thinking I'm 'dao' =P) It happens occasionally though, and when it does, we hit it off really really well!

So, being who I am...i think I've come to appreciate a good conversation. Whether serious, light-hearted or downright crappy...as long as the person listens and expresses himself sincerely.

So right now, even though it feels tough...I'm going to work hard to become a better conversationalist in social events! Ha!

*I started out this post on a whole different topic...but somehow...i think i lost track as I typed on.....am I even making sense? *

Skinny Jeans

I have succumbed to buying a pair.

Konayuki by Remioromen

I love the way this song is sung...so I'm sharing it!


粉雪
Konayuki

粉雪舞う季節はいつもすれ違い
konayuki mau kisetsu wa itsumo surechigai
人混みに紛れても同じ空見てるのに
hitogomi ni magiretemo onaji sora miteru noni
風に吹かれて 似たように凍えるのに
kaze ni fukarete nita you ni kogoeru noni

僕は君の全てなど知ってはいないだろう
boku wa kimi no subete nado shitte wa inai darou
それでも一億人から君を見つけたよ
soredemo ichioku nin kara kimi wo mitsuketa yo
根拠はないけど本気で思ってるんだ
konkyo wa nai kedo honki de omotterunda

些細な言い合いもなくて同じ時間を生きてなどいけない
sasai na iiai mo nakute onaji jikan wo ikite nado ikenai
素直になれないなら 喜びも悲しみも虚しいだけ
sunao ni narenai nara yorokobi mo kanashimi mo munashii dake

粉雪 ねえ 心まで白く染められたなら
konayuki nee kokoro made shiroku somerareta nara
二人の孤独を分け合う事が出来たのかい
futari no kodoku wo wakeau koto ga dekita no kai ?

僕は君の心に耳を押し当てて
boku wa kimi no kokoro ni mimi wo oshiatete
その声のする方へすっと深くまで
sono koe no suru hou he sutto fukaku made
下りてゆきたい そこでもう一度会おう
orite yukitai soko de mou ichido aou

分かり合いたいなんて 上辺を撫でていたのは僕の方
wakariaitai nante uwabe wo nadeteita no wa boku no hou
君のかじかんだ手も 握りしめることだけで繋がってたのに
kimi no kajikanda te mo nigirishimeru koto dake de tsunagatteta noni

粉雪 ねえ 永遠を前にあまりに脆く
konayuki nee eien wo mae ni amari ni moroku
ざらつくアスファルトの上シミになってゆくよ
zaratsuku asufaruto no ue shimi ni natteyuku yo

粉雪 ねえ 時に頼りなく心は揺れる
konayuki nee toki ni tayori naku kokoro wa yureru
それでも僕は君のこと守り続けたい
soredemo boku wa kimi no koto mamori tsuzuketai

粉雪 ねえ 心まで白く染められたなら
konayuki nee kokoro made shiroku somerareta nara
二人の孤独を包んで空にかえすから
futari no kodoku wo tsutsunde sora ni kaesu kara

English Translation

Powdered Snow

We always miss each other in the season of fluttering powdered snow
Though we're lost in the crowd, we're looking up at the same sky
And blown by the wind, we both feel the same chill

I'm sure I don't know everything about you
But still I found you out of a hundred million people
I have no proof, but I truly believe that

We can't spend time together without quarrelling over little things
If we can't be honest with each other, happiness and sadness are empty

If the powdered snow had made our hearts white
Would we have been able to share our loneliness?

I want to press my ear against your heart
And descend quietly into the depths where that voice leads me
Let's meet there once again

I'm the one who said I wanted us to understand each other, but just brushed the surface
When just by holding your cold hand we're connected

With eternity before it, the powdered snow seems too fragile
It stains the surface of the rough asphalt

Powdered snow, sometimes I'm unreliable and my heart is swayed
But even so I want to keep protecting you

If the powdered snow has made our hearts white
It will enfold our loneliness and return it to the sky

CNY

Chinese New Year is just around the corner!

Things I look forward to during CNY ;>
1. Bai Du Yu ( White Belly Fish ) - Absolutely Delicious
2. Steamboat on CNY Eve - Yummz
3. Ang Pows - Although the amt is getting lesser
4. Catching up with family and relatives I don't get to see often
5. Wearing all the nice clothes we all specially buy for CNY!

Agenda for today:-

Work hard for rehearsal tonight, have dinner, go catch Ghostrider. ( It should be good! )

Agenda for tomorrow:-

Work hard for Jim Beam Reh in the Morning (yes morning...)! ha! And return home to wonderful steamboat.

Laters then!
Happy CNY everyone!

B.I.G Reinvented
Coming to you soon
23rd February 2007

This Tuesday wasn't too bad. =] Didn't feel as exhausted as the previous two.
Probably because We didn't have rehearsal.

And I'm starting to feel sleepy at earlier times...due to someone's influence?! haha
I think I'm getting some real good motivation to sleep early and wake early =P.

Tom is gonna be an easy day, an hour with some adorable Primary 2 kids and then, I'm probably going CNY shopping. Ha!

Its V-Day tom! No dates for me =P Shall just enjoy my own company....

Happy Valentine's to all the couples in the world! May all the singles find theirs soon. *Muacks* In the meantime, just enjoy the ride!

Horoscope of the day:

"Just continue to be yourself -- don't let temporary insecurity change who you are."

Good advice.

Had a nice cosy lunch at Walker's Pizza today. The food was good, the company was great! Caught Apocalypto after that. It's quite a violent show. Plot wise....so so i feel.

After that, just walked around town and ended up chilling for quite a while at Coffee Bean Taka...time just flew by.

Headed off to Grandma's house for dinner after...A nice long relaxing and enjoyable day.

I had fun!

I have been waking up to a number of surprises lately. =]
It's a good feeling.
Makes life seem brighter.
And on this note,
This shall be a time to rest, recuperate and work even harder for the 23rd of February.

And also, to work on my regain health regime!

Thank you.

All of you.

For the cheers and the encouragement.

It was a good experience.

I will work harder for the 23rd.

B.I.G @ Dbl-O
Tonight 10pm

Be there.

This is really random but of late, I feel like I have forgotten the art of dressing up.

I dance almost everyday so I wear my dance gear around plus a set of t-shirts to change into. That's about it because too heavy a bag kills my back.

Have not had the chance to just "doll myself up" for the sake of just dolling myself up so I feel "pretty, feminine and elegant" - for a long while. I've been cutting down on the heels because of my back ache as well.

I am so gonna buy myself a few nice sets of feminine clothing after the competition is over, in prep for chinese new year!

Yup.

Phwah...survived another Tuesday!

Shamelessly plugged for support during class for the dance competition this friday. V(^_^)V Now I'm feeling abit stressed because all my students will be there watching and I feel like I may underperform! (@_@)''' Ahh Pressure. Haha...

Students! If you read this, just cheer incessantly haha no matter what happens!

Rehearsal was cut short because everyone's sick, tired and burning out. Hope we can all recharge before Friday! I believe in B.I.G! We will aim to own the stage ok??

Dancers tend to just kill ourselves, dancing so hard everyday. Therefore, I am praying hard that the ailments and sicknesses pass quickly for all of us.

Achingly yours,
Zee

Old Issues, New Perspectives.
Same People, Different Feelings.
No matter what happens, time keeps travelling.
Somehow or the other, We all carry on living.

Its Tuesday!! Again!!!

Arghhhh.

Had "Dim Sum" at Kum Boat restaurant yesterday afternoon. Quite liked the rowdy atmosphere over there as compared to the more "regal" and quiet atmosphere at other dimsum restaurants located in hotels. Gave a very lively and energetic feel which i think i needed to wake me up haha because I slept at 6am and woke up at 10am. X_X

Got my hair done as well. *Cheers*
Its now blue black with purple-red chunky highlights. Pictures soon.

Felt abit weak and soft when i woke up today. And I am noticing, as I type this, that my hands are trembling slightly as I lift them off the keyboard!! Is this an occurance brought about by too much sleep? Because it has happened before, after I overdose on sleep after a previous night of lack of sleep. Think it is not a healthy sign and I know I should start my "regain proper sleep regime" soon.

I know, but I procrastinate.

Focus

Things will be smoother next week on....

Sorry for the chaos and confusion today guys.

I am beginning to see some direction.

Stress

I am stressed.
NOTHING I choose or do feels right.

All things Purple

I want purple highlights like that!
Abit more chunky and obvious at the ends.

What do y'all think? Any comments?

My hair is currently straight, layered and black with bits of brown here and there.

Been procrastinating bout the hair ever since december...I couldn't decide between dyeing the whole head brown or doing black purple. Shall aim to book an appointment with the hair stylist this weekend.

Just finished music for CAC production (yes, its 4.15am..been at it since 1am). Feel so uninspired, its like i force-puked myself with the music edit. Haiz...hope it turns out fine. I feel so inadequate about my dance skills lately.

Much needed rest

Gave rehearsal a miss today for some much needed rest.
The back is not giving me any slack. I can barely twist to the left by 20 degrees.
Need to rest it so I can do the stunts properly without risk.
Mentally tired as well, lots of thoughts regarding work and other stuff plaguing my sleep. So I stayed at home, shut my brain off for the day and watched a DVD....*smiles*

I know I'm so backdated posting this but who cares....."The Devil wears Prada" is GOOD.