Bye 2007, Hello 2008

Happy New Year

As we leave 2007 behind, remember the good times, the bad times, the funny times, the sad times. For they are all precious times, memories we gain in our very short lifetimes.

As we welcome in 2008, look forward to more good times, bad times, funny times and sad times. Do things that you've always said you wanted to try but have been procrastinating forever. Learn from past experiences and mistakes and improve on yourself.

All my friends and family out there,

Blessed New Year!

強さを与えなさい

I just remembered that whenever I start wanting to do retail therapy, it means my emotional wellbeing is not doing very well.

It's been a roller coaster lately.

It just took a dip.

I feel like I'm losing all my inspirations and I'm starting to question myself on what I used to be so sure of.

Ahh I want that DVD on yesasia....crap.

Fashion Stuff

Okay, I went to teach at youth park today and I couldn't help splurging on 4 tops at cineleisure after that. Haven't gone out of the house in 4 days not to mention going shopping, so I just lost it. I'm like torn between saving money and buying all the things I want on my wish list nowadays.

Am quite low after spending on Code:edge and the competition, and I want to go to LA and Japan next year. Yet I am still eyeing this DVD from YesAsia.com and I wanna get new clothes! Not to mention I feel like going to do a manicure, facial and eyebrow trimming.

Sighz.

Anyways, was browsing the online spree link again after so long and I must say some of those Korean/Jap styles are very nice! The few pictures below are like my favourites and styles I think can be achieved. The model is stick thin, however! It will never look as good on us unless we're like totally emancipated with no form of fat around our arms, hips and thighs.

Casual, comfy, girly
*I kinda miss having hair like that...*


I like the cap + scarf and casual top matching here


Only a stick thin model can carry off the pants like this!
*She has like non existent hips!*
But it's still sleek and hot!


I love the white jacket on her!!
Plus the jeans tucked into high boots!!
Crap, why Singapore dun have winter?!
*Sulks in one corner*

Been stifling an urge to get myself another ear piercing as well as a navel piercing....the navel studs from bodycandy are really pretty!! Check them out here. Just browsing all the bling stuff makes me want to go do it tomorrow and face the wrath of my parents forever and ever.

Hmmm I wonder if it's worth it.

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to All

May Good tidings carry us through to the new Year,
Where all our wishes will hopefully come true!

Cheers Everybody!!

No smile

I have a very unnatural smile now, due to my braces.

Like I don't know to smile or to keep my mouth shut, so I always end up with a half **** smile in photos nowadays.

Grr....*reminds herself* Patient smile Patient Smile....

And to announce to all, I'm a very un-xmas'y person hor. So I don't buy gifts one. Apologize first. Just never had the habit of joining in the festive mood. Xmas shopping crowd is always crazy. I also intend to spend this christmas alone and with immediate family only. But! I want to thank all who thought of me enough to get me gifts though! I really appreciate it, because it is very nice to receive gifts.

Merry Xmas!

Movie Fanatic

Christmas! Holiday Season! Movie Season!

I wanna watch:

Golden Compass
Mr Magorium's wonder emporium
National Treasure [Checked]
I am Legend
Linger

GTO aishiteru

Photo Update

Long Overdue Photos
I only get time to upload photos when I fall sick.
How sad is that.

Merrill Lynch DnD Show with Fen
My best shot with Fen since everrrrr.

Pre Code:Edge "costume fixing" frenzy
*trivia: our costume was only tailored halfway. There was no time to fix the changes needed so we self customized! Bet you couldn't tell! hah!*

See Winnie frantically trying to finish ironing on her diamontes to our purple jacket. We called ourselves "The Brinjals" because we were so purple.

Sam and Shidah painstakingly sticking on diamontes to our new Kappa shoes, only to have them fall off minutes later when they had to wear them for costume run.

Note: The Kappa Shoes are very cheap. $29.90 for a pair at Queensway shopping centre. Looks good too!

Above mentioned Shoes. Now 10 times more expensive because of real Swarovski Crystals stuck to them.

GTO Babes
Code:Edge@Zouk




I love you very much "brinjals"! Let's dance together again!

Rendezvous in Patrick's Hotel Room
*It was 4am, I was very tired and had no form of makeup on, so i looked shitty*

I lurrve this picture. It's hilarious!

Gigi Torres! My superstar.

Us fooling around in said room. Dead looking me and Juice. 2 people trying to act cute =P.

Renovating my room


Clearing my room for renovation works.
Will update on it on and off.
My new room is going "zen", Come warm it up when it's done.

Lowest point of the year

Fallen ill. Cold chills, double vision and fever.

Think all the pent up frustration, exhaustion, stress and pressure caught up to me finally. It's when I can finally let loose and release that the other little problems creep up and invade my vulnerable body!

This is like the lowest I can go right now. What a good way to end 2007. I need some tender loving care.

Anyways, wanna thank Bingz for her energy healing today at Jade's house warming cum Xmas party. (Yes! I went ok!! Buddy not?) I'm still trying to be positive to it and keeping an open mind...it's cool to see you so seriously into it! May you succeed and become an amazing energy healer!! Then we hire you to give dancers positive energy!

It was fun despite my fever! Jade's house is a fortress by the way! Got crane on the top floor somemore! Cool or what? Thank you Adriene for the towels! I'll be sure to use them when I go dance!! Pink!!

So I am going to take panadol and go sleep now...hopefully tomorrow will feel better so I can choreograph for my dance items.

Laters.

Slept my Tuesday away. Have recovered my sleep debt from last week finally. Feeling less depressed.

New things to start working on from today onwards. Must focus.

Bryan, thanks for Sunday *winks* and I will miss you! I also want to go Japan for Holiday....say Hi to D'oam for me okay?

My DVD arrived from Hongkong! yay!

Over

Code:edge

Finished

Finally over and done

It was our best performance

I'm relieved but feeling very tired

So far to climb still...

Must jiayou.

Have a lot of thoughts in my mind and I do not know how to write it out. But my vibes are generally not happy.

Oh well....let's keep GTO going?

Gigi

Today shall be a brand new day.

I shall not worry about how badly I danced that last two days.

I will not stress over my insecurities and incompetencies.

I have to keep a positive attitude.

I will not lose confidence over little things.

We will do good at Code:Edge!

Mixed feelings

Project Element Dance Workshop today and tomorrow.

I took classes from Patrick Chen, Lee Daniels and Gigi Torres from Dance2XS today!! Imagine having watched their videos on youtube since 1-2 years back and today I actually got to dance with them!! It wasn't easy. In fact, it was bloody tough. And the instructors are amazing.

I absolutely love Gigi's style. But I cannot do it. Yet. Ever??

I'm at a point now where I have super mixed feelings. I'm deciding if I should be inspired to push myself further in dance or just call it quits. Yes, it is that extreme.

Sigh...

Finals

Yay! Horror week is over. I finally have time to sit down and breathe.

Feeling less frustrated but still tired out. GTO had early morning rehearsal for Code:Edge.

ATTN: YES! We are in the finals!!!!

After that, rushed down to teach class for my D'hoppers at their dance camp. It was a good albeit really mini dance competition/showcase my dear hoppers! Like I said, I'm very proud! Next time maybe we can have some of you choreograph simple items for performances...=P. Hope you all enjoyed yourselves and picked up new things along the way.

Got back home, took a nap, had dinner with my mom, picked my dad up from the airport and here I am enjoying some time just randomly surfing the net. Felt like buying something so I ordered a DVD online from YesAsia.com because shipping was free! Now I'm eagerly awaiting the arrival of my DVD....2 weeks!

Am in the mood to pamper myself as well....but need to earn the money first. Wanna do manicure, facial, buy makeup products and pretty clothes!! Wanna learn singing also...haha so that my students don't have to bear with my croaking during dance classes. Nah....actually it's more like I wanna learn something new and just get to experience and know more people outside of dance. Something that's refreshing...

Okay.....to end off. I am officially announcing this Event.

Code:Edge Dance Finals
15th December @ Zouk
7-11pm
$25

*Drop me a message if you want me to help you get tickets*

There will be showcases by various dance groups as well as the guest instructors from USA. So...my dear friends, come and show your support for me and the other amazing dancers!!!

GTO! Let's Ghetto!

Heats went badly.

Our own rehearsal run earlier was all good and neat but the nerves got to us.

We ended up looking messy.

Need to buck up. I messed up a lot, was not projecting.

Feel so Drained.

I suck.

It's bloody 3.00am at night now, I have to teach a class at 10am tomorrow, am stressed with Code:Edge heats at night and here I am doing pointless and stupid things. Just as I was lecturing a friend about not wasting her time on finding out and digging out stuff about someone she should not even be bothered with, here I am doing the same thing. Just because of a single comment someone made. I cannot stand this side of myself. I am exhausted, frustrated and disappointed in myself. Having it still affect me so much. I want to cry.

Gonna off the bloody pc and go sleep.

Phiishhh.

Back to Black.

Need to sleep.

Gonna crash.

Maze

Maze (JaeJoong)

What is freedom?
What is right?
After dreaming a strange dream
A shadow is wandering

It seems as if I can see it
But I can’t see anything
It’s a virtual image.

I’m falling behind with the busy daily life.
In miserably distorted time base.


Let’s go to the place where the lights and hope are overflowing
Across the strong wind
Keep on following the once broken dream
Keep running on the road that I believe to be the right one

Oh to live more like me *myself*

As carrying the burdern of crime and punishment on my back
My spirit is drained
The rain is pouring down on me drenching me

Like the hateful fate would be washed away

I wander about in entangled maze alone.
Trying to find a place where you can reach

Flying high, holding the passion that your instincts remember
So you can touch the sky

Harden by treading down the wall of falsehood
To find the unknown world
I’m not afraid or anything

Oh I am crying out after my heart

Oh more like me

Let’s go to the place where the lights and hope are overflowing
Across the strong wind

Keep on following the once broken dream
Keep running on the road that I believe to be the right one

Oh to live more like me

Keep running

Fight or Flight?

Have decided to blog a little more coherently tonight, rather then posting crazy rants, eye candy and funny bumper stickers. *maybe then, you'll understand my rant*

I'm really tired.
I don't sleep very well.
I've got bloody ugly eyebags.

Rehearsals for Code:Edge and a few shows almost back to back have been pretty taxing. I just updated my schedule book and I suddenly have this uncontrollable urge to just take flight and run away, far far far away. With my current schedule, I'm booked until end December and I have not even started adding in rehearsal slots and class slots for the performances and courses I have to do for my NUS clubs this coming January and February 08. There might even be a CAC Club Showcase Concert in March 08 which will be crazy if they do not tell me the plans soon so I can start planning.*ahem*

There is also an Urban Mix Show scheduled for June/July next year as well. *Pulls hair*

I was planning on doing an NCAP theory course - which is kinda required nowadays if you want to teach in schools, in January 08...But looking at my poor messily scribbled book, I doubt I can do it. Might push it back to April. Ahhh I feel so jumpy and distracted each time I start trying to fit in my schedules, seems like there are so many things and I cannot concentrate on any. The "Fight or Flight" mechanism in me is acting up and I'm swaying to the FLIGHT action heaaaavilyyy!

Well, okay, if I want to see it from a positive point of view....

busy schedule = earning money

So work hard, save up and then really take flight overseas for a good well deserved break! Also, the upcoming performances and showcases should be quite exciting and refreshing despite harsh schedules.

For short term prayers....Hope I make it to the competition without burning out early on. On the good side, dancing with GTO babes is a very fun and new experience. We're all really just dorks at heart. Let's make it work, girls!! Strong and sensual, strong and sensual!

Must rest more when I have the chance.
And stop munching on fattening titbits!
Grrrr.

I love this bumper sticker