Bad mood

I woke up today, turned my computer on and saw something I did not like.

It has put me in an immediate bad mood. I'm being silly I'm sure, but hell, it still killed my mood.

Time and Time again, I feel left out. Little little things can still affect me. Why?

Heck, My gums are feeling better so I'm going to head out and watch transformers. It better be a good movie. ~~~~~~~~~~~ All Sold Out. I love you 30th June 2007.

Rest in peace, Ishi.

A friend passed away yesterday.

May he rest in peace.

We'll always remember you, Ishi.
Be happy wherever you are.

Gone

I have just received a piece of very sad news....

the suddenness and abruptness of it is very shocking.

Everything can just change in an instant. Just like that.
And many hearts will be heard shattering.

Like a friend said, "Please people, Be Strong."

Ouch........

It's Done. My 4 Wisdom teeth are out. Some sedation it was, I was aware throughout and the injections hurt big time. Bleah.

On MC from 28th June to 4th July.

Do Not Call, I will not pick up. I cannot talk properly.
SMS me.

Hurts Like HeLL.

I will not blog until I feel better.

NYP rocks! Yamapi rocks!

I had a very good class today at NYP! Gave a one off workshop for their dance club. It makes me feel very motivated when I give a good class and I see people having fun dancing. It also makes me feel very motivated when the dancers are keen to learn so I can push them more! Thanks for the Gift, Peoples! *Hugs*
Good timing to help me with some inspiration for 2 items I have to finish choreographing by July!

I just finished watching Proposal Daisakusen Final Episode! To the readers who actually watch the show also, I was officially reduced to a melting fangirl upon....

*spoilers?*

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.........watching Yamapi give his heart wrenching declaration of love and then going off on his own to the church to sob!! I so melted when he gave that awkward smile at the very end! Saikou!!

Okays, no more fangirling. Going to bed, teeth extraction in 1 day! Scared......very scared.

Photos

I Promised Piccies over the weekend right? Well here they are!

Justice League Cast preparing for our last performance.

Note Harris "The Shade" (pre-make and costume) behind the two girls looking not so scary!

Harris "The Shade" in scary mode, wringing Mag's neck!

Volcana in super "over" make up for our very last show.


"Wonder Woman" and "The Flash"


We are "keh leh fare" backup extraordinaires!
*Eessh I look horrible in a bun*


It's finally over!!

Random pictures of that manicure I had a month ago =PP


Pretty Nails........all GONE now!

Hilarious Impersonations

I'm going back to my nocturnal sleeping habits! Bleah! Anyway, while surfing the net LATE at night, I found 2 hilarious impersonations of two popular Japanese Boy bands. I laughed my head off...I'm going to post it even if my readers may not find it as funny. Ha! Quality's a bit blur but its youtube...=P

Original Shuji to Akira(Live)



Impersonation 1



Original KAT-TUN(Live)



Impersonation 2



Special Impersonation Video (Funny!)

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Home Sweet Home?

Hotel Raizan South
My "home" for the month of August.

I'm going to Japan, it's getting surer, one step at a time. This trip is giving me some good experience on travel planning.

Yeah, my spree clothes will be arriving either today or tomorrow....mwahahaha.

Okay, short post. Bye.

To do list

Dancing salsa moves in an outfit more suited for belly dancing felt kinda off tonight haha! But it was a simple job and the cash came immediately after end of show, so everyone's happy!

Things on my "To do" list for July:

• 3 items to finish choreographing before I leave for Japan...I'm going to stress myself out but for 1 carefree month in Japan, it's worth it!

• Search for a 1 month substitute instructor (August) for my Whitley Secondary Dance club. *anyone free on Tuesdays from 3.30pm to 500pm and keen to take up the job? It's $100 bucks for 1.5 hours*
  

Just for your information, from now until I come back from Japan, I'm sooo going to spout all things Japanese in my blog so often that all my readers will get so sick of it! mwhahaha.

I know I promised pictures.....errhh maybe on the weekend. I did not expect to still be so busy after the Justice League show...bleah.

Osaka, Japan

ITINERARY

Departing:	Singapore(SIN - Changi Intl) on Sat, 04 Aug 2007, 0110 hrs
Arriving:	Osaka(KIX - Kansai Intl) on Sat, 04 Aug 2007, 0835 hrs
Flight:	SQ618 (B777-200) Economy Class
Departing:	Osaka(KIX - Kansai Intl) on Sun, 02 Sep 2007, 1655 hrs
Arriving:	Singapore(SIN - Changi Intl) on Sun, 02 Sep 2007, 2230 hrs
Flight:	SQ621 (B777-200) Economy Class

I just booked my air tickets. I am going to JAPAN!! yayyyyy

Oh Happy Day

I slept in like a pig today.
It's such a wonderful feeling.
(^_^)V


Good news!
The items from one batch of my spree purchases have arrived in Singapore!
Not long now before I get them.
My wish came true!
The dresses have come before I leave for Japan.
Yatta!

It's a wonderful day!

This is the end of the Justice League

Today marks the end of the Justice League United Mascot Show!
It's been fun, guys!
*Piccies up tomorrow*

Show ran for 3 weeks and now it's finally over! Time for me to go get a life! I hope the accounts department processes the cash fast. I'm already planning for what I want to buy with the money.

Seeing that my Birthday is just around the corner*hint hint*, I have decided to splurge abit and pamper myself by getting one of the luxury items I have been eyeing since the start of this year. I'm going to use my own HARD EARNED cash to buy myself a PSP as a reward for working so hard. I figure it is going to come in handy when I'm in Japan. Entertainment on the go, for nights when I am unable to sleep and for long train and plane rides. So, if anyone is intending to get me anything, don't buy me the PSP...hahahahha so BHB.

Behold, the PSP

Remember the Macbook? It's on my luxury item list as well. Remember I am in a splurging mood right now because my Birthday is just around the corner? I am soooooo tempted to get the Macbook! I sooooo want the Macbook. I really wanna get it....should I get it? I'll have to sell my Toshiba first....grrrr. Anyway, I'm going to be thick skinned and ask first. Sooooo.....Does anyone feel like being a nice generous soul? Generous enough to sponsor my Macbook just because you love me so much? Drop me a message! *muacks*

"If you don't ask, you won't get?"
Well, I'm asking right now.

I'm going to show you what I have purchased from shopping sprees online thus far. I am eagerly awaiting their arrival. I hope there are no mistakes in items and they arrive before I leave for Japan.

Lastly, advanced notice.
I'm intending to head to Butter Factory on the 20th of July for a mini birthday celebration and all friends are invited.
Details will be up soon.

Blah

I wanted to stay home tonight but I made myself go for a post show social dinner gathering. "Good for future networking", I told myself. It was also polite.

Now I feel horrible.
Because I felt so out of place and I still couldn't do anything to change it. I'm losing what little people skills I have!
I felt so horrible, I ended up canceling a clubbing appointment with a friend and I feel so bad but I just couldn't go. *Sorry babe. My bad, I'll make it up to you ok?*

Last day of show tomorrow. I'm so tired.

Why am I having such depressing thoughts???

Yells at myself: You have got to CHEER UP, girl! No more depressed posts okay?? OKAY!

Big Girls Don't Cry

My best friend's girl

Book Recommendation of the month

My best friend's girl
Dorothy Koomson

"What would you do for the friend who broke your heart?"

Summary

Best Friends Kamryn Matika and Adele Brannon thought nothing could come between them - until Adele did the unthinkable and slept with Kamryn's fiance Nate. Worse still, she got pregnant and had his child. When Kamryn discovered the truth about their betrayal she vowed never to see any of them again.

Years later, Kamryn receives a letter from Adele asking her to visit her in hospital. Adele is dying and begs Kamryn to adopt her daughter Tegan. With a great job and a hectic social life, the last thing Kamryn needs is a five year old to disrupt things. Especially not one who reminds her of Nate. But with no one else to take care of Tegan and Adele fading fast, does she have any other choice? So begins a difficult journey that leads Kamryn towards forgiveness, love, responsibility and, ultimately, a better understanding of herself.

Blah

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Blah!

*Whoever can translate that, I'll give you 10 bucks! Hee*

Understanding a hidden piece of me

Am I too jaded?

Lately I feel as if I've gone back to the days where I was very closed off and detached from people I meet. I'm not a very open and talkative person by nature and most of the time i feel very awkward trying to communicate with people I meet, new faces especially. Therefore, I keep quiet.

I want so much to be able to connect and to communicate freely with others and to show them who I really am, yet I am afraid I will say or do the wrong things and leave a bad impression and that makes me uncomfortable. Also as a cancer, I have tendencies to feel uneasy when in unfamiliar ground. I've always been more comfortable with close friends and even with them, I was still learning to speak my thoughts to them openly at times.

When I started teaching as a dance instructor, I gained confidence from having to speak out and relate to a studio full of people and things got better. I could approach people and start a casual conversation. I found myself being able to connect with others without feeling as awkward and people dear to me told me they were proud.

"She's beginning to come out of her shell"

Some things have happened since then and I've realised how easily things can just fall apart, no matter how steadfast we all thought they were and that when things break, there will be a flaw even after you manage to piece things back together. It is no longer the same thing it was before. In my case, it is something called friendship. There are also people who are like the phrase "what you see is not what you get" and I got a small taste of that as well.

Nowadays, I feel tired of trying to build new connections. I clamp up. The feeling of insecurity and uneasiness has started to build up again. I'm even tired of trying to rebuild fading connections even if they may mean a lot to me. I see no point in saving something that someone else let go off so easily. I want to go out, meet new people, start an interesting conversation but the truth is, I am afraid.

Afraid of getting hurt.
Afraid of being played.
Afraid of being made into a fool.
Afraid of being left behind once more.

"If fear is stopping you from doing the things you want to do, then you are not truly living."
"But not everyone can become the hero they need to be."

People are beginning to scare me. Heck, I scare myself. Even on this blog, I sometimes hesitate to speak my mind on certain issues because of their sensitivity to others.

But at least tonight, I spoke my mind. my heart. my soul.

"If anyone feels uneasy about what I have posted tonight, ask yourself why."
"Are you a broken piece?"

Eye candy

Nothing much to post about today, did my routine two shows at Junction 8, taught a class in the morning and had a nap in between shows. I'm already counting down the days to end of show run! 10 more shows to go before the cash comes rolling in.
Side note: Doing a show with your nose running is a chore but you learn to handle it.

Since I pretty much have no life right now, I shall leave you with some funny skits with pretty boy eye candy tonight. Enjoy!

Akanishi Jin Comedy Skit 1



Akanishi Jin Comedy Skit 2



Kattun Bedtime Skit



Jin Hair skit (Just because he looks so cute smiling at the end)

Flu

Attack of the killer flu bug!

I hate.

Some Justice League Backstage photos

Jay and Me.....Jay's the assistant director of the show. He's Filipino and a very soft spoken man. Cute!

Esther aka the sexy, evil Volcana. She has hair til her calves!
I love this picture. It was taken crooked because of my bad aiming skills but it turned out quite nice. Like a mini wallpaper kinda shot!

Me and Mag. Love ya babe!



Lydia and me. Lydia is the backstage manager cum caretaker. She "mommies" all of us and helps us with our costumes and props. She is one cool gemini!



Zatanna! Mistress of Magic!
"She's a little hung over from last night. ;P"

Batman! Practicing his kungfu moves in front of the mirror.
He's very cute in person!
Jay is attempting to capture it on cam.

P.S. I think i look horrible in the photos. Argh, bad skin!

Beauty and Me

I went to the Shiseido counter at Isetan Scotts today to get some skincare items. Spent a bomb on one make up remover and 2 moisturizers for day and night care. I then sauntered over to MAC and bought a compact, 2 eyeshadow plates and a kohl pencil. Yes, the past 2 weeks of perfomance has depleted my makeup.

After I pay for everything and glance at my receipt (i will keep the number to myself) , it strikes me that women really spend loads on skincare just so that they can keep their skin healthy, soft, smooth and supple. All the cash just rolls into the skincare department....oh and clothes and bags and shoes and hair.......ahhh whatever!

Well....the worries and importance of skincare for a dancer are more.

Imagine having to do shows on a daily basis for 2-3 weeks. You keep piling on the stage makeup (it's thicker than normal natural makeup)and removing it. Piling on, removing, Piling on, removing. The skin can't breathe and probably gets clogged when the make up is on and the cleaning off might give you wrinkles years later. You have to invest in good effective skincare products to make sure that all impurities are removed from your skin when you cleanse and to ensure that the skin gets the necessary nutrients to keep healthy, firm and radiant. I'm always very worried I'll get wrinkles around my eyes earlier than every other woman whenever I remove my eye makeup. I sigh when I see a blackhead and I moan when i get a slight outbreak. I just don't feel pretty and confident with bad skin.

I think I'll go for a facial after the shows are finished and done with...and there you have another money sucking machine. It hurts like hell as well!

To what extents would you go for beauty, ladies?


P.S. Some photos up in a bit...

Blogthing

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are calm and rational. You are also giving and kind - a great friend. You are easy going and trusting. However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

You Should Date A Japanese Guy!

You're an interesting blend of traditonal and modern And a Japanese guy is likely to be on your wavelength Maybe you'll show your love by dying your hair the same color Or get married in a traditional white kimono!

Which Foreign Guy Should You Date?

Ahaha...what's surprising?

countdown

And so...
the countdown begins.

3rd August 2007.

Self Improvement x 2

I have started to go to bed every night by 1.30am and waking up at around 9-10am these past 2 weeks. I'm starting to slowly feel my body clock move back to "normal" hours which is good news. Knowing how I like to work, think, watch videos and surf the net until the wee hours of the night usually...I'll probably have to work very hard to maintain this healthier pattern after my show ends, but I will succeed. "It's all in the mind....it's all in the mind."

Also....

Yay! The book i ordered from Amazon.com spree came in the post today. Ureshiii. The entire book is in Japanese, so..... *whips out her dusty e-dictionary* .....I shall work hard at reading and translating it for myself to understand. I'm going to try and use it as a medium to practice and revise the language in preparation for the upcoming trip to the land of the rising sun.

With this post, I shall head to bed like a good girl...

Zzz.....

Bad show

We almost screwed up the show today.
All because of some wrongly placed boxes and a carpet stage.
Thankfully, we did not.

Serving the Justice League is hard work.....

Ibanking is evil!

I've just burnt a hole in my pocket! I just went ahead and bought 1 pair of pants, 3 dresses and a pair of aesthetic contacts for myself online!

Total damage is $93 freaking dollars in one night.

Internet banking really is the devil! It's too bloody convenient. Haha.
I've never done so much impulse shopping in my life. Doesn't help that the items are really CHEAP...so cheap that it's overly tempting! Imagine 3 dress and 1 pair of pants for only 54 bucks! Yeah the contacts were more costly...$38 bucks for 1 pair..BUT it has a lifespan of 1 year!

Here I am trying to resist the Great Singapore Sale....but yet...there is online shopping! And it's even cheaper than the GSS! I think I should cut my internet line for a while.

The gains from this kind of retail therapy aren't even immediate! Hahah...it's going to be at least 1 month before I receive my items. Furthermore, I have not received the items from my previous spree purchase! hahaha. The fastest purchase was a book from Amazon.com.....which should be in next week.

Somebody please remind me that I need to save up for my Japan trip in August which just happens to cost me $6k.....

Adorable

A friend's Dog - Takky
Fall in Love with him. heh

Chio Jacket

I love the Leather Jacket in the above photos!!!!!!!!
So chio!

But once again, I have told myself not to buy it because I probably will not get much of a chance to wear it in Singapore. Darn, why am I going Japan in the Summer and not Autumn???? At least that would have given me a reason to get the jacket...

*reluctantly moves her mouse over to the browser's [X] button.....*

Fat Wuss

If it bothers you, voice it out.
Easy to say, Hard to do.

I'm bothered by certain things, but I keep them to myself. I think I'm such a wuss.

Anyway...today was a rather hectic day. I did my JL show at 1pm, rushed off to a friend's church wedding reception at 2pm, travelled home and had a quick change, went to do my JL 7pm show and rushed off to another friend's BBQ gathering.

Now I'm finally home, blogging on a very full stomach. All those BBQ chicken wings are not helping my diet. I feel fat.

Well, I'm looking forward to a good break tomorrow and Monday because there's only one show tom and Monday is my off day! Shall go meet up with my travel friend's to discuss Japan trip! heh.

I shall now go and print out all the information i need.

Adios!

Queer

I feel queer.
Am I queer?
I am queer.

Don't feel like going anywhere except to work and straight home.
Feel like disappearing for a while to re-tune myself.
Maybe I should.
Maybe.

Rain thwarts Justice League!!

It rained today. Not before the show, Not after the show BUT during the show!

The rain was blowing right into our faces haha.

The evil Shade got stuck trying to come out from backstage bacause he couldn't go out front due to the rain. The bit that got stuck ---- His Tall Hat!

Batman had to kill time before his lines came up, because he couldn't run around the audience before getting on stage, So ----- He and the enemy circled round and round each other many times in silence, giving each other menacing glares!

The rain stopped before the next show, so we didn't get a break off today! hahah too bad.

Nippon

Nippon ikkimashou!!

Nihongo wa ima ganbarimashou!

Osaka e ikitai desuuuu!