Drove myself to work today!
I achieved a goal!
I think i set it a few months back in July or August.
"I will drive myself alone without supervision to work by december"
30th December....did it! yay haha
Feels like a mini milestone for me, knowing my "over protected" background but I dun seem to get enough encouragement from him about it. BAH!
Got upset over another issue as well. Don't you understand that it really sucks to hear you say you'll go with someone else if i don't go? It's New Year! And I'm in a dilemma about whether to go or not because I care and I'm trying to find the best solution. I don't want to go half hearted as well.....
Whatever la....
Good job to myself on the car.
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Signs of ageing
Went for my last two dance classes before the year ends today...
Popping went relatively well....Micheal taught quite a lot today so it felt quite satisfying. I can't pop my arms though....can't feel no muscles there ahahha...
MTV was a different story. I went to class wanting to full out the whole way, which i did! I was getting all the steps and the beats already.....until the very last 10-15mins where I suddenly felt a sharp pain in my right lower back. After which every time i arched or moved, it felt like my back was in this really horrible and painful stuck mode. That freaked me out. Freaked me out enough to actually stop dancing and walk out of studio to rest and attempt to stretch it out.
i usually know if it's just an achy muscle pull or strain and i'd just endure it through class but today just caught me unawares...for a moment i thought "this is it..."
Thankfully that stuck feeling went away after a while with a few back stretches. Now it's just achy. I'm still in one piece...
Sigh.....this is truly a sign of old age.
If I weren't so freaked out, I'd say it was quite hilarious really...me trying to stretch in all the possible ways and Lixin there panicking with me and suggesting more stretches...but ya....it was scary. Must warm up on my own first next time before class...
old woman le la!!
Popping went relatively well....Micheal taught quite a lot today so it felt quite satisfying. I can't pop my arms though....can't feel no muscles there ahahha...
MTV was a different story. I went to class wanting to full out the whole way, which i did! I was getting all the steps and the beats already.....until the very last 10-15mins where I suddenly felt a sharp pain in my right lower back. After which every time i arched or moved, it felt like my back was in this really horrible and painful stuck mode. That freaked me out. Freaked me out enough to actually stop dancing and walk out of studio to rest and attempt to stretch it out.
i usually know if it's just an achy muscle pull or strain and i'd just endure it through class but today just caught me unawares...for a moment i thought "this is it..."
Thankfully that stuck feeling went away after a while with a few back stretches. Now it's just achy. I'm still in one piece...
Sigh.....this is truly a sign of old age.
If I weren't so freaked out, I'd say it was quite hilarious really...me trying to stretch in all the possible ways and Lixin there panicking with me and suggesting more stretches...but ya....it was scary. Must warm up on my own first next time before class...
old woman le la!!
Friday, December 19, 2008
Friday, December 12, 2008
*Warning* Complain Post
The Complaining starts now....
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Why is it whenever I take dance workshops I will "chui"? The feeling is blardy sucky la...to not be able to perform to standards. And the sucky feeling stays after which makes me do worse and worse each time around.
How to be a good dancer lidat?
Wah...sending people home is blardy tiring as well. Not that I'm a selfish bitch who doesn't want to send them home. It's not them, its the process of driving the distances. Sometimes...it really gets very draining. Especially when you're tired, cranky and just want to go straight home to rest. I am starting to understand how my parents feel....I won't ask them to send my friends home too late at night ler....
When will I get my own car so I can have more freedom?
Want to spend more time with him. Ask him for lunch twice this week already but always too busy. He's so tired out from work and marathons and dance that he's so cranky sometimes...gets on my nerves. Haven't really had proper time with him since we came back.
When i disappear for 3months....how?
Sigh...........
So much for Xmas cheer.
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Why is it whenever I take dance workshops I will "chui"? The feeling is blardy sucky la...to not be able to perform to standards. And the sucky feeling stays after which makes me do worse and worse each time around.
How to be a good dancer lidat?
Wah...sending people home is blardy tiring as well. Not that I'm a selfish bitch who doesn't want to send them home. It's not them, its the process of driving the distances. Sometimes...it really gets very draining. Especially when you're tired, cranky and just want to go straight home to rest. I am starting to understand how my parents feel....I won't ask them to send my friends home too late at night ler....
When will I get my own car so I can have more freedom?
Want to spend more time with him. Ask him for lunch twice this week already but always too busy. He's so tired out from work and marathons and dance that he's so cranky sometimes...gets on my nerves. Haven't really had proper time with him since we came back.
When i disappear for 3months....how?
Sigh...........
So much for Xmas cheer.
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Human
Learning to put emotion into dance.
To feel from within and just let your body flow with the music.
Feels very scary, feels very vulnerable.
But if we can do it, it will be magical.
It will be human.
To feel from within and just let your body flow with the music.
Feels very scary, feels very vulnerable.
But if we can do it, it will be magical.
It will be human.
Been taking Meredith Kerr's Lyrical Jazz classes and looking at her dance, she just takes my breath away every time. It may not always come out well on video but seeing her dance in person is magical. It is not dancing, it is becoming one with the song, the lyrics, the emotions behind the song.
I feel her.
I feel her.
Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick
Friday, December 5, 2008
Hong Kong Affair
Hong Kong 08
Weather - Excellent
Food - Excellent
Shopping - Excellent
Dance - Excellent
Company - Excellent
Weather - Excellent
Food - Excellent
Shopping - Excellent
Dance - Excellent
Company - Excellent
You know you have it easy when you have a personal navigator who is amazing at directions. He goes back to the hotel by a different route every single time! Here he is hard at work trying to figure out how to get us from Tsim Tsa Tsui to Shopping Haven Mongkok!
Hong Kong Honey Char Siew!
Xia Ren Wan Ton Mee!
Delicioussss!
Enjoying the nice cool weather at avenue of stars. Bought a cup of starbucks coffee to keep our hands warm. I seriously think Starbucks is invading the world. Or Hong Kong at least. I see a branch everywhere I go. sometimes 2-3 in the same building or along the same street.
Shopping Shopping Shopping!
Along the streets of Mongkok.
Hong Kong is truly a city that never sleeps.
Departmental stores were still open at 11pm.
People were still walking the streets at 12am.
We were still eating Spicy crabs and prawns at 1am.
Did a 5 hour dance session at Ones to Watch Dance Studio.
The instructor in the photo is Haruna and she is a major beauty!
The classes were alright and class size wasn't too big so it was a pretty comfortable 5 hour session. The studio was rather tough to find though. Hidden away in some dim alley.
Popped on over to Infinity Dance studio to have a look see to decide if we wanted to go there the next day....it was super PACKED! And the atmosphere seemed much more competitive.
We woke up aching the next day and ended up not dancing!
Useless.
The super random, vain, practical as hell guy who never fails to make me laugh.
A new month, A new me
December 2008
She thinks it's time to re-invent herself.
The blog has been rather stagnant of late....because there has been so many aspects of her life that she suddenly had to juggle and see the practical sides of.
She has been slightly anxious and depressed and unsure of herself.
But instead of just worrying over the issues, she has decided to actively work towards her goals. Time to re-evaluate what she wants out of love, life and career. So what if others are improving by leaps and bounds and she seems stuck. She is going to attempt to un-stick herself and shine as well.
Time to figure out what she's good at and move on from there.
Xmas resolutions ( if there is such a thing )
The blog will not die a slow death.
She will work towards finding her own *inner diva*.
To learn everthing, we must first acknowledge that we know nothing
She thinks it's time to re-invent herself.
The blog has been rather stagnant of late....because there has been so many aspects of her life that she suddenly had to juggle and see the practical sides of.
She has been slightly anxious and depressed and unsure of herself.
But instead of just worrying over the issues, she has decided to actively work towards her goals. Time to re-evaluate what she wants out of love, life and career. So what if others are improving by leaps and bounds and she seems stuck. She is going to attempt to un-stick herself and shine as well.
Time to figure out what she's good at and move on from there.
Xmas resolutions ( if there is such a thing )
The blog will not die a slow death.
She will work towards finding her own *inner diva*.
To learn everthing, we must first acknowledge that we know nothing
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Monday, November 17, 2008
More than words
Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
Its not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
-Extreme, More than words
Is not the words I want to hear from you
Its not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
-Extreme, More than words
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Sephora!
And just a short bimbotic update.
I was window shopping at Takashimaya today and my heart stopped when i saw this sign.
I was window shopping at Takashimaya today and my heart stopped when i saw this sign.
SEPHORA.
Coming to you December 2008
Coming to you December 2008
Like omg....Sephora is finally coming to Singapore! (man i sound like a bimbo..)
If you do not know what sephora is where have you been??.....Sephora is a leading beauty retailer offering the finest in fragrance, cosmetics and facial skin care products in the industry. It has products from almost every makeup brand there is. They have really pretty stuff!
I used to have to order the stuff online. Now I can get it in Singapore! All those amazing makeup brands!! *flushes*
Just hope my skin can take it. Grr.
Monday, November 10, 2008
a bad "breakup"
And I've been there for 4 years....
They took me in and gave me new life...
A place to grow and to improve...
There were issues but it was always fun because everyone enjoyed each other...
And now that it has to end this way...leaving so many problems un-addressed.
Making decisions based on short sighted viewpoints...it has left many shaken and disappointed and lost....
Clear directions were never given but could we have done more? Would it have been worth it doing more?
So many unspoken thoughts....but it's all just turning into apathy.
4 years on.....should I stay or should I go?
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I stayed.
They took me in and gave me new life...
A place to grow and to improve...
There were issues but it was always fun because everyone enjoyed each other...
And now that it has to end this way...leaving so many problems un-addressed.
Making decisions based on short sighted viewpoints...it has left many shaken and disappointed and lost....
Clear directions were never given but could we have done more? Would it have been worth it doing more?
So many unspoken thoughts....but it's all just turning into apathy.
4 years on.....should I stay or should I go?
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I stayed.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Friday, October 31, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Blow
In this period where I'm already feeling a little lost and unfocused in my work direction....i have been dealt one strong blow.
I am now one shaky, unhappy and demoralised person.
Do I continue on, ignoring all my insecurities and the cruel realities I see catching up on me, pushing on blindly, trying to keep things going with just my passion? Will that be enough to carry me forward, will I have the discipline and the drive to make it all work?
Or should I just put it as a sideline now and focus on other things that will probably make more sense and give me more stability in the future? Becoz it just feels like I will never reach where I want to go.
Two ways to go. Which one?
I am now one shaky, unhappy and demoralised person.
Do I continue on, ignoring all my insecurities and the cruel realities I see catching up on me, pushing on blindly, trying to keep things going with just my passion? Will that be enough to carry me forward, will I have the discipline and the drive to make it all work?
Or should I just put it as a sideline now and focus on other things that will probably make more sense and give me more stability in the future? Becoz it just feels like I will never reach where I want to go.
Two ways to go. Which one?
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
October Update
First things first. I always believe in this rule "Ask, and it shall be given."
Ask I did ( on my MSN nick no less) and true enough, they read me and now I have gotten myself a brand new stylish D'Hopper Tee Shirt, designed and printed by CAC Dhoppers Dance Club!!
Does this mean that if I want an iphone or a DS Lite, I can just declare on my MSN my dears? hehehe!
Very efficient la!
Thanks so much!
*Hugs hugs*
I have been running around so much, I no longer call myself an internet junkie/addict. I used to spend hours on the internet just browsing and doing god knows what....nowadays I don't even have time to check my mail! Nobody has to remind me that my blog is dying and uberly boring. I don't have the energy to even attempt a creative writing post. Shall just update first with some pictures.
Managed to find some time to upload long overdue photos from some of the shows I did. The Above three I love! First we had to be multi-coloured getai babes, than sensual tutu girls ( I think we were spoofing soccer players in the photo). The last just a nice shot with my dancing maggie mee!
Bryan and us 3 girlies@ butter on his birthday
Happy Birthday Bryan! I know it was a month ago but ya...this shot was nice! everyone looked realllly happy!
And this ends my one and only October post so far.
Until later....
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Love Language
The Five Love Languages
My primary love languages are probablyPhysical Touch and Quality Time.
Complete set of results
| Physical Touch: | 9 | |
| Quality Time: | 9 | |
| Acts of Service: | 5 | |
| Words of Affirmation: | 4 | |
| Receiving Gifts: | 3 |
Information
Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.Take the quiz
Thursday, September 25, 2008
what do you do?
when your passion for something feels like it's slowly dying......
what do you do?
when it really starts sinking in that passion alone will not cut it....
what do you do?
when there are so many other aspects of your life that you need to work on and juggle, and it just gets tougher...
what do you do?
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
I want to watch Coppelia
Coppelia
Ballet du Grand Theatre de Geneve
9th October 8pm
Anyone want to go with me??
Ballet du Grand Theatre de Geneve
9th October 8pm
Anyone want to go with me??
Monday, September 15, 2008
Monday, September 1, 2008
Me?
What Teo Zhenzhi Means |
 You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. |
Friday, August 29, 2008
NCAPped
1 month 10 sessions 3 times a week
I present to you...............
The National Coaching Accreditation Course Level 1 (NCAP)
The course I've been busy with the past one month ever since i touched down in Singapore. A cert required by MOE if you wanted to coach in schools in future. (Yes, I literally chiong-ed to class the moment I touched down at Changi Airport....)
For 3 times every week the past one month, I've been diligently heading down to Bouna Vista to attend 3 hour classes on how to be a better coach. No life this past month. Initially, was a little worried that the classes were going to be dry as everyone I spoke with so far have told me the classes were really boring and super draggy and all they did was sleep or stone in class. However, I was pleasantly surprised as the lessons actually turned out quite interesting and useful in the practical aspects of coaching. Although the focus was on sports and not so much on dance...I managed to pick up quite a few pointers that were still helpful and could be applied to how I handled students and conducted classes. A very good plus point of the course was that they provided hot coffee and tea with a light meal halfway through class. The breaks turned out to be the highlight of class and the hot drinks were always very welcomed especially with the rainy chilly nights the past week! :P
Got to know a few swimming instructors and other people from the different walks of life. One guy even coached MotorCross Biking and Skydiving!
And now after 9 sessions, its EXAM time! Tonight 730-830, we sit for an open book paper and after that, it marks the end of the course!! Yay!! Unless *choy choy choy* you fail the exam la....then you have to resit the paper! If you fail again, you have to resit the entireeeee course! And the cycle goes on this way until you pass.
I should pass la hahaha. I think. I better pass!
Now to go sit down and run through the notes and highlight the important sections! Man , I haven't "studied" in ages....
Results updated in a month's time. Cheer me on peoplez!
I present to you...............
The National Coaching Accreditation Course Level 1 (NCAP)
The course I've been busy with the past one month ever since i touched down in Singapore. A cert required by MOE if you wanted to coach in schools in future. (Yes, I literally chiong-ed to class the moment I touched down at Changi Airport....)
For 3 times every week the past one month, I've been diligently heading down to Bouna Vista to attend 3 hour classes on how to be a better coach. No life this past month. Initially, was a little worried that the classes were going to be dry as everyone I spoke with so far have told me the classes were really boring and super draggy and all they did was sleep or stone in class. However, I was pleasantly surprised as the lessons actually turned out quite interesting and useful in the practical aspects of coaching. Although the focus was on sports and not so much on dance...I managed to pick up quite a few pointers that were still helpful and could be applied to how I handled students and conducted classes. A very good plus point of the course was that they provided hot coffee and tea with a light meal halfway through class. The breaks turned out to be the highlight of class and the hot drinks were always very welcomed especially with the rainy chilly nights the past week! :P
Got to know a few swimming instructors and other people from the different walks of life. One guy even coached MotorCross Biking and Skydiving!
And now after 9 sessions, its EXAM time! Tonight 730-830, we sit for an open book paper and after that, it marks the end of the course!! Yay!! Unless *choy choy choy* you fail the exam la....then you have to resit the paper! If you fail again, you have to resit the entireeeee course! And the cycle goes on this way until you pass.
I should pass la hahaha. I think. I better pass!
Now to go sit down and run through the notes and highlight the important sections! Man , I haven't "studied" in ages....
Results updated in a month's time. Cheer me on peoplez!
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Strength
Nothing to blog about....boo....becoming a boring lazy writer....oh no!!
Finding ways to gain more independence, strength and money...
grrr.
Finding ways to gain more independence, strength and money...
grrr.
Shall photo whore a picture I like.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Osaka/Tokyo 2008 Random Photos
Foodie!
Heavenly Cheesecake. You can only buy 2 at each time. Want 3 or more, you have to call and reserve it 3 hours in advance!
Crab Dinner! Sashimi, Sushi and Shabu Shabu!
I present to you Singapore Hainanese Chicken Rice!
We spotted a stall at Suma Beach selling it. Tastes almost like the real thing!
The chef went to Singapore for one week to learn the recipe hahaha...
Sights and Bright Lights
Rows of bicycles parked along Shinsaibashi
The stupid fish trucks that threatened my life a couple of times at Tsukiji Fish Market.
Along Ginza streets
I explain this picture another time hahaha...isn't it a cool car?
Heavenly Cheesecake. You can only buy 2 at each time. Want 3 or more, you have to call and reserve it 3 hours in advance!
Crab Dinner! Sashimi, Sushi and Shabu Shabu!
I present to you Singapore Hainanese Chicken Rice!
We spotted a stall at Suma Beach selling it. Tastes almost like the real thing!
The chef went to Singapore for one week to learn the recipe hahaha...
Sights and Bright Lights
Rows of bicycles parked along Shinsaibashi
The stupid fish trucks that threatened my life a couple of times at Tsukiji Fish Market.
Along Ginza streets
I explain this picture another time hahaha...isn't it a cool car?
Friday, August 1, 2008
From Japan
Damnnnn tired!!!!
Japan is fun fun fun....so glad to be back again but yes as usual, dance classes are super tiring. My legs feel like they are about to drop off soon!
I <3 Kyogo!
The shopping here is okay this time round....saw some nice shoes but a little on the expensive side...grr...might buy it if I have enough money left over.
See ya all when I get back! Not looking forward to going home yet!!!
Muacks!
Japan is fun fun fun....so glad to be back again but yes as usual, dance classes are super tiring. My legs feel like they are about to drop off soon!
I <3 Kyogo!
The shopping here is okay this time round....saw some nice shoes but a little on the expensive side...grr...might buy it if I have enough money left over.
See ya all when I get back! Not looking forward to going home yet!!!
Muacks!
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Japan here I come!
Haven't been blogging much. Been a little busy with dance, earning money and preparations for my Japan trip.
Yes my dears, I'll be away in Japan for about 2 weeks. Will be there from the 30th of July to the 11th of August. I am still contactable via my mobile and email should there be any urgent messages. :) Will take lotsa photos there and post them up to make everyone jealous ya! haha I am evil. It's Summer there and it's going to be bloody hot....hopefully got time to go beach again if the schedule allows. Whee....3 more days to Hot Dance Instructors, Fancy Shopping, Delicious Ramen and Fresh Sashimi! Wonder if I should be worried though because Japan just experienced some earthquakes a few days ago....woohoo...tremors.
Come to think of it, I'll be spending quite a few significant dates in Japan this year.
01.08.08
Our anniversary :)
Such an easy date to remember and so significant in our own way...*hugs*
08.08.08
The Beijing 2008 olympics!
Isn't this such a cool number....shall go sit on some ferris wheel in Japan and take a photo just to have the date printed down on the photo as a memorabilia ahahah...
09.08.08
Singapore's Birthday! National Day....
I spent National day in Japan as well last year. Such a coincidence.
Shall go to some nice quaint restaurant and sing happy birthday to Singapore while drinking Asahi biru!! hahaha
Until next time!
Yes my dears, I'll be away in Japan for about 2 weeks. Will be there from the 30th of July to the 11th of August. I am still contactable via my mobile and email should there be any urgent messages. :) Will take lotsa photos there and post them up to make everyone jealous ya! haha I am evil. It's Summer there and it's going to be bloody hot....hopefully got time to go beach again if the schedule allows. Whee....3 more days to Hot Dance Instructors, Fancy Shopping, Delicious Ramen and Fresh Sashimi! Wonder if I should be worried though because Japan just experienced some earthquakes a few days ago....woohoo...tremors.
Come to think of it, I'll be spending quite a few significant dates in Japan this year.
01.08.08
Our anniversary :)
Such an easy date to remember and so significant in our own way...*hugs*
08.08.08
The Beijing 2008 olympics!
Isn't this such a cool number....shall go sit on some ferris wheel in Japan and take a photo just to have the date printed down on the photo as a memorabilia ahahah...
09.08.08
Singapore's Birthday! National Day....
I spent National day in Japan as well last year. Such a coincidence.
Shall go to some nice quaint restaurant and sing happy birthday to Singapore while drinking Asahi biru!! hahaha
Until next time!
Monday, July 21, 2008
Friday, July 18, 2008
Monday, July 14, 2008
Birthday-ed
Thank you everyone for all the birthday wishes.
The day was made special with all your.....
presents
cake
smses
facebook messages
private mails
and
birthday song yelling over the phone
I Hearts Ya'll!
The day was made special with all your.....
presents
cake
smses
facebook messages
private mails
and
birthday song yelling over the phone
I Hearts Ya'll!
*Thank you for your presence the whole day even though you were super exhausted*
*I really love the present*
Too bad you don't read blogs and won't see this message, :PPP
*I really love the present*
Too bad you don't read blogs and won't see this message, :PPP
Friday, July 11, 2008
Panadol
There have not been any major public holidays of late...so I forgot about my irritating habit of falling sick on those particular days.
Guess what.
I'm sick again.
What a painful reminder of that irritating habit. AND i thought I was getting healthier.
Put on weight mah!
Although I don't think it's considered a MAJOR holiday but it is a MAJOR day of my life.
I'm sick on my Birthday lor! 12th July....
Trying to be positive and bluff my body into health by constantly telling myself I am ok, I feel good! ....it doesn't seem to be working much HAH! The flu's gotten worse after I taught 5 hours of classes today.
Guess I'm gonna be counting down to my birthday tonight with a runny nose....sigh.
Shall go depend on good ol' mr. panadol.
Goodbye to a quarter of my life. Old le la!!!!!!!!!!!!
Guess what.
I'm sick again.
What a painful reminder of that irritating habit. AND i thought I was getting healthier.
Put on weight mah!
Although I don't think it's considered a MAJOR holiday but it is a MAJOR day of my life.
I'm sick on my Birthday lor! 12th July....
Trying to be positive and bluff my body into health by constantly telling myself I am ok, I feel good! ....it doesn't seem to be working much HAH! The flu's gotten worse after I taught 5 hours of classes today.
Guess I'm gonna be counting down to my birthday tonight with a runny nose....sigh.
Shall go depend on good ol' mr. panadol.
Goodbye to a quarter of my life. Old le la!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
12th
12.07.2008
Coming Soon.
I am passing my quarter lifespan mark!!
Quarter life crisis........
Arhhhhhhh
Coming Soon.
I am passing my quarter lifespan mark!!
Quarter life crisis........
Arhhhhhhh
Monday, July 7, 2008
Alive?
I like this quote.
" You cannot be involved only in good moments, doing things you really like, and not be involved in those moments and things you don't like. Feeling alive is experiencing every moment, pleasant and unpleasant."
I am feeling quite alive of late.
" You cannot be involved only in good moments, doing things you really like, and not be involved in those moments and things you don't like. Feeling alive is experiencing every moment, pleasant and unpleasant."
I am feeling quite alive of late.
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Monday, June 30, 2008
Ow.......
I went for my first facial in years today!
Been having a very bad bout of dry skin, bumps, clogged pores and pimples of late so I decided to do something about it and not just let it go off by itself.
Have had enough of bad skin...want to get my clear smooth skin back again..So i made an appointment with the facial lady.
One word sums up the experience.
Ouch
The price we pay for vanity and the pain we endure for it as well.....sigh...
Planning for my next torture session already
HA.
Been having a very bad bout of dry skin, bumps, clogged pores and pimples of late so I decided to do something about it and not just let it go off by itself.
Have had enough of bad skin...want to get my clear smooth skin back again..So i made an appointment with the facial lady.
One word sums up the experience.
Ouch
The price we pay for vanity and the pain we endure for it as well.....sigh...
Planning for my next torture session already
HA.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Wed night
Today's class was amazingly good.
Hellava lot of pain but it actually loosened up my joints and some muscles.
My russian jump could go alot higher as well..
Maybe I should crash sunday conditioning...haha
Nike Black/Gold High Cuts, be mine soon!
Brian Friedman BeFree Shoes! Size 6! be mine soon!
And I really really really really really...............................
Hate fish and Vinegar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hellava lot of pain but it actually loosened up my joints and some muscles.
My russian jump could go alot higher as well..
Maybe I should crash sunday conditioning...haha
Nike Black/Gold High Cuts, be mine soon!
Brian Friedman BeFree Shoes! Size 6! be mine soon!
And I really really really really really...............................
Hate fish and Vinegar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
I'm yours
Jason Mraz
Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon its again my turn to win some or learn some
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melodys
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love
So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la one big family ([2nd time:] ah, la happy family)
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love
I won't hesitate no more
Oh no more no more no more
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved, I'm sure
Theres no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
No I won't hesitate no more, no more
This cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours, I'm yours
Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon its again my turn to win some or learn some
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melodys
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love
So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la one big family ([2nd time:] ah, la happy family)
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love
I won't hesitate no more
Oh no more no more no more
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved, I'm sure
Theres no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
No I won't hesitate no more, no more
This cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours, I'm yours
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Thinking
Thinking of setting up a Standard Chartered Xtrasaver and e-savers account.
Financial planning.
Thinking of signing up with Bunka Japanese Language school for Pre-adv Jap classes.
Still want to get my JLPT2 cert.
Thinking of going New York in November.
To improve myself.
Thinking how to become a better dancer.
To be acknowledged.
Thinking how long I can dance.
What's next?
Thinking what I can do if I stopped dancing.
.....?
Thinking how I can earn more money.
To sponsor all those things I still want to do.
Just thinking.
Financial planning.
Thinking of signing up with Bunka Japanese Language school for Pre-adv Jap classes.
Still want to get my JLPT2 cert.
Thinking of going New York in November.
To improve myself.
Thinking how to become a better dancer.
To be acknowledged.
Thinking how long I can dance.
What's next?
Thinking what I can do if I stopped dancing.
.....?
Thinking how I can earn more money.
To sponsor all those things I still want to do.
Just thinking.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Focus
I really do not understand certain things people do anymore.
The choices they make.
The facades they put up?
Maybe I'm just too weak, too naive to still be concerned?
Maybe I'm just putting up a facade as well....who am I to judge?
Shall stop giving myself unnecessary frustrations over things i no longer have a grasp over. Or have the right to still be concerned over...
Forget it.
It's their life.
Let's focus on my own life.
The choices they make.
The facades they put up?
Maybe I'm just too weak, too naive to still be concerned?
Maybe I'm just putting up a facade as well....who am I to judge?
Shall stop giving myself unnecessary frustrations over things i no longer have a grasp over. Or have the right to still be concerned over...
Forget it.
It's their life.
Let's focus on my own life.
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Monday, June 16, 2008
D'Hoppers@CAC+US 08
Like A Star
Tweaked version of the Funkamania showcase Item earlier this year. Think the energy and cleanliness of the item improved a level my dears! :)
Purple Line
Messy and energy very scattered. Considering we got it out in less than 2 weeks, I think it's not too bad. But I'm sure we can do better. Please keep practicing this for 4th July show and the next welcome tea ok!
Play Ball
Big scale project. Turned out very good. Keep it up!
Showcase
I think you girls did a wonderful job on the choreography for this! Well done!
Okay...next up, Jazz.
Tweaked version of the Funkamania showcase Item earlier this year. Think the energy and cleanliness of the item improved a level my dears! :)
Purple Line
Messy and energy very scattered. Considering we got it out in less than 2 weeks, I think it's not too bad. But I'm sure we can do better. Please keep practicing this for 4th July show and the next welcome tea ok!
Play Ball
Big scale project. Turned out very good. Keep it up!
Showcase
I think you girls did a wonderful job on the choreography for this! Well done!
Okay...next up, Jazz.
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Spin!
After Wu Recital!
Super Free! Happy!
Went to catch Indiana Jones, Kungfu Panda and Spin Odyssey!
Kungfu Panda was very entertaining actually. I had my qualms about watching it at first but I'm glad I did.
Spin Odyssey by Last for One at Esplanade was really spectacular. It was held at the recital studio which was smaller and closer to the audience. The flow was good and the fusion between dancers, audience interaction, music, dance theater and video projection was flawless. The story was comical and entertaining enough with a little cheesy bits here and there that weren't too draggy. The dancers themselves were very fit, very precise and very professional. They could break, pop, lock and ACT really well!
Whoever still has a chance to catch it, if the tickets are not sold out yet...do go and catch it! Ends 15th June, tomorrow!!
This kinda puts the UM show preparations and project into perspective..............sigh.
How?
Super Free! Happy!
Went to catch Indiana Jones, Kungfu Panda and Spin Odyssey!
Kungfu Panda was very entertaining actually. I had my qualms about watching it at first but I'm glad I did.
Spin Odyssey by Last for One at Esplanade was really spectacular. It was held at the recital studio which was smaller and closer to the audience. The flow was good and the fusion between dancers, audience interaction, music, dance theater and video projection was flawless. The story was comical and entertaining enough with a little cheesy bits here and there that weren't too draggy. The dancers themselves were very fit, very precise and very professional. They could break, pop, lock and ACT really well!
Whoever still has a chance to catch it, if the tickets are not sold out yet...do go and catch it! Ends 15th June, tomorrow!!
This kinda puts the UM show preparations and project into perspective..............sigh.
How?
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Friends
Met up with my JC friends today after teaching at Jitterbugs. Have not met up with some of them since a few years back so it was a really good "reunion" in that sense.I loved the fact that even after not meeting up for so long, the chemistry and the friendship was still there. Being comfortable and crappy with everyone and just being ourselves. Of course, we have all matured and grown up over the years but nothing has changed also in a sense...that we still click and have fun together.
One of my new year resolutions this year is to keep in contact and meet up with old friends more often, to work on friendships and relationships which I think are worth treasuring and building on...so I think it's been rather fulfilling so far.
Friends add colour, joy and laughter to our lives.
And I have learnt to treasure them for that.
One of my new year resolutions this year is to keep in contact and meet up with old friends more often, to work on friendships and relationships which I think are worth treasuring and building on...so I think it's been rather fulfilling so far.
Friends add colour, joy and laughter to our lives.
And I have learnt to treasure them for that.
Monday, June 9, 2008
Dumb Blonde
Eye to Eye....
Contact!
Thanks for the flowers, everyone!
&
Thanks for your presence. ;)
To:
Wackers/Lockers/Sliders
It was really fun!
Good Job!
Monday, June 2, 2008
Significance
Phuture was good.
1 for 1 is good too!
Tolerence level going up again ....dammit.
Don't even bother asking me how much I had to drink haha...
Drinks were good, Company was great!
Got home at 6am! Wooo
Chionged to Studio Wu Rehearsal at 10am only to realise I could have arrived at 12pm instead! Nua-ed there for 3 hours and had a long long day at rehearsal.
Super tired and irritable at the end of it.
But!
A pleasant surprise made the night a whole lot happier.
(I'm not someone who is easily surprised so yup....am very touched! ;>)
Gonna crash now!
1 for 1 is good too!
Tolerence level going up again ....dammit.
Don't even bother asking me how much I had to drink haha...
Drinks were good, Company was great!
Got home at 6am! Wooo
Chionged to Studio Wu Rehearsal at 10am only to realise I could have arrived at 12pm instead! Nua-ed there for 3 hours and had a long long day at rehearsal.
Super tired and irritable at the end of it.
But!
A pleasant surprise made the night a whole lot happier.
(I'm not someone who is easily surprised so yup....am very touched! ;>)
Gonna crash now!
Friday, May 30, 2008
BBQ-ed Marshmallows
I LOVE BBQ MARSHMALLOWS!
CrIsPy SwEeT
on the outside
WaRm AnD MeLtEd
on the inside
Had a great time at the BBQ!
I'm sure the mosquitoes had a sumptious meal as well...hahah
Seeya all real soon my dears!
CrIsPy SwEeT
on the outside
WaRm AnD MeLtEd
on the inside
Had a great time at the BBQ!
I'm sure the mosquitoes had a sumptious meal as well...hahah
Seeya all real soon my dears!
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Memories
CAC+US 08
D'Hoppers
Jazztitude
Thanks for the flowers, gigantic photo card, tee shirt and jacket.
Love ya guys lots!
We should get the videos from CAC soon and have a sleep over just to watch it all over again together!
Both clubs together.
Psst...Jazzies...lemme know once you all upload photos k!
Wanna put up as well.
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Love ya guys lots!
We should get the videos from CAC soon and have a sleep over just to watch it all over again together!
Both clubs together.
Psst...Jazzies...lemme know once you all upload photos k!
Wanna put up as well.
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I like this picture
Monday, May 26, 2008
Proud
25.05.08
CAC+US 2008
Proud of you all
Glad everyone had a good experience!
Now to do a good job for recital...
Here I go.
CAC+US 2008
Proud of you all
Glad everyone had a good experience!
Now to do a good job for recital...
Here I go.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Normality
Haven't had time to do a totally pointless blog about the simple normal boring things I do in my life lately so here goes!
I managed to finish up all my items in time....we have 3 days until show! I leave my dancers with this quote....
"No one sees how hard you work. They only see the end result. So PERFORM!"
Haha....stress or not?
So after my hectic Monday and Tuesday, I managed to get some free time off this afternoon for lunch and window shopping with my mom. A relaxed afternoon spent at Parkway Parade without having to jostle with the weekend crowd.
I went to pick up my coloured contacts. Got gray, amethyst and the black rimmed ones that make you look like you got BIG BIG eyes! I know I have become a little more vain lately hahha...well...cannot be a lazy woman! In the words of Winnie Wong, we must aim to be OLD and HOT! LAO CHIO!
Currently using the Philosophy cleanser and moisturiser I ordered from US also....supposed to be very effective for skin wor....brings out the natural radiance! HAHA
Had lunch at Sakae Sushi after that. Bought some Anderson Ice cream as an indulgence as well...good that my apetite is back! But that probably means my weight will go back up....not sure if I'll find it a good or bad thing. But I am back to my secondary 2 weight now lor........which is a little too scary.
Saw this piece at Dorothy Perkins. Nice simple white cotton sundress which fit nicely actually....just that it was a blardy $73. I refused to buy it even though I liked it very much. Shall go Wisma/Tangs tomorrow to see if I can find similar ones for cheaper! Grrr....
So tomorrow I'm going to have a full dress rehearsal with my dancers! Am excited to see the items with full costumes!! Nothing on in the morning so I shall sleep until noon then go meet a friend for lunch! Hell schedule almost over........Yay.
Thinking of trying out Bikram yoga.
Hmmmmm....
We're crashing into the unknown, We're lost in this but it feels like home.
I managed to finish up all my items in time....we have 3 days until show! I leave my dancers with this quote....
"No one sees how hard you work. They only see the end result. So PERFORM!"
Haha....stress or not?
So after my hectic Monday and Tuesday, I managed to get some free time off this afternoon for lunch and window shopping with my mom. A relaxed afternoon spent at Parkway Parade without having to jostle with the weekend crowd.
I went to pick up my coloured contacts. Got gray, amethyst and the black rimmed ones that make you look like you got BIG BIG eyes! I know I have become a little more vain lately hahha...well...cannot be a lazy woman! In the words of Winnie Wong, we must aim to be OLD and HOT! LAO CHIO!
Currently using the Philosophy cleanser and moisturiser I ordered from US also....supposed to be very effective for skin wor....brings out the natural radiance! HAHA
Had lunch at Sakae Sushi after that. Bought some Anderson Ice cream as an indulgence as well...good that my apetite is back! But that probably means my weight will go back up....not sure if I'll find it a good or bad thing. But I am back to my secondary 2 weight now lor........which is a little too scary.
Saw this piece at Dorothy Perkins. Nice simple white cotton sundress which fit nicely actually....just that it was a blardy $73. I refused to buy it even though I liked it very much. Shall go Wisma/Tangs tomorrow to see if I can find similar ones for cheaper! Grrr....
So tomorrow I'm going to have a full dress rehearsal with my dancers! Am excited to see the items with full costumes!! Nothing on in the morning so I shall sleep until noon then go meet a friend for lunch! Hell schedule almost over........Yay.
Thinking of trying out Bikram yoga.
Hmmmmm....
We're crashing into the unknown, We're lost in this but it feels like home.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Loneliness
Who's scared of loneliness?
Shakespeare, Leonardo Da Vinci, Benjamin Franklin and Lincoln never saw a movie, heard a radio or looked at a TV. They had loneliness and knew what to do with it. They were not afraid of being lonely because they knew that was when the creative mood in them would mark.
Carl Sagan
Shakespeare, Leonardo Da Vinci, Benjamin Franklin and Lincoln never saw a movie, heard a radio or looked at a TV. They had loneliness and knew what to do with it. They were not afraid of being lonely because they knew that was when the creative mood in them would mark.
Carl Sagan
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Let's work it
Had a mini run through of all 6 dance items for CAC+US last night and this morning.
Yes 6 items ...... 4 new ones and 2 revamped ones in a span of 5-6 weeks ( 60 hours)?
After watching the whole run....I kinda thought to myself...
"wow, how the hell did I pull this off? I must have been crazy to even have talked myself into doing this."
But the good news is....I felt a little bit of satisfaction. Things are slowly falling into their places and I can see effort on the dancers' side as well. Good job so far my dears! Will keep pushing and hopefully, show day will be a blast. We have much to do!! Let's work harder!
Studio Wu Rehearsal was not too bad this evening. I did not forget steps and I did not screw up anything...
Been functioning on 5 hours of sleep the past few days....shall go shut down now.
P.S. Bryan, hang in there ya!
Yes 6 items ...... 4 new ones and 2 revamped ones in a span of 5-6 weeks ( 60 hours)?
After watching the whole run....I kinda thought to myself...
"wow, how the hell did I pull this off? I must have been crazy to even have talked myself into doing this."
But the good news is....I felt a little bit of satisfaction. Things are slowly falling into their places and I can see effort on the dancers' side as well. Good job so far my dears! Will keep pushing and hopefully, show day will be a blast. We have much to do!! Let's work harder!
Studio Wu Rehearsal was not too bad this evening. I did not forget steps and I did not screw up anything...
Been functioning on 5 hours of sleep the past few days....shall go shut down now.
P.S. Bryan, hang in there ya!
Thursday, May 15, 2008
hmmm
Unspoken messages
Subtle connections
Quirky understanding
Underlying tension
A funny funky chemistry
And it's moments like these that really make me go
hmmm....
I think I'm going crazy la...2 weeks to show! Stress!
Brain not working well. Not well at all!!!!!
Subtle connections
Quirky understanding
Underlying tension
A funny funky chemistry
And it's moments like these that really make me go
hmmm....
I think I'm going crazy la...2 weeks to show! Stress!
Brain not working well. Not well at all!!!!!
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Thursday, May 8, 2008
Crappy Poetic moment
3 weeks of rest...
Gone in a flash!
Now I need to work my ass,
2 more weeks to a big bang cactus fest!
Gone in a flash!
Now I need to work my ass,
2 more weeks to a big bang cactus fest!
Monday, May 5, 2008
Friday, May 2, 2008
Deeper
Something changed again tonight.
And I'm sinking deeper.......
and deeper.....
and deeper...
into what...I'm not sure.
Yet.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Geylang Action
Just something random I thought I'd share.
A friend and I had a drive through the streets of Geylang one night because we decided to have dinner there and I suggested driving around because I have never seen the "action" going on there before even though I've read and heard about it.
So, we took a drive around and man...........the amount of MEN there was appalling. It's like all the men of all types just congregated there. We saw a many women standing around as well along the streets just waiting for business. What really got me thinking "wow!" was when we went into this particular street which probably housed the more upper class girls, I saw rows of them just standing in one straight line in their skimpy clothes like products on displays. Saw one man approach and negotiate with one of the girls as well while the others just looked on and waited.
I think it was a pretty eye-opening experience for me. The blatancy of it all and it's just one street beside the normal food areas. Yes, it was one of the random things I did last week.
Anyways, we left in the end without dinner because it was too blardy crowded to find a parking lot......
A friend and I had a drive through the streets of Geylang one night because we decided to have dinner there and I suggested driving around because I have never seen the "action" going on there before even though I've read and heard about it.
So, we took a drive around and man...........the amount of MEN there was appalling. It's like all the men of all types just congregated there. We saw a many women standing around as well along the streets just waiting for business. What really got me thinking "wow!" was when we went into this particular street which probably housed the more upper class girls, I saw rows of them just standing in one straight line in their skimpy clothes like products on displays. Saw one man approach and negotiate with one of the girls as well while the others just looked on and waited.
I think it was a pretty eye-opening experience for me. The blatancy of it all and it's just one street beside the normal food areas. Yes, it was one of the random things I did last week.
Anyways, we left in the end without dinner because it was too blardy crowded to find a parking lot......
Monday, April 28, 2008
一種Feel
每一次從愛裡離開 就像是心被切一塊
切一塊 下次再也不敢放膽愛
誰知道主歌才一半 橋段都還沒唱出來
就突然 你的出現爆破了悲哀
難道 我又我又初戀了 不可能 我又我又初戀了
可是 真的真的初戀了 這一種FEEL
我又 真的真的初戀了
我愛你 你愛我 我們再也找不到藉口
就像是 第一次 一起飛著愛情的自由
我愛你 你愛我 我們再也不需要藉口
又一次 初戀了 就算降講有一點荒繆 誰在乎喔
我吃了鐵牛運功散 因為我內傷好犀利
好犀利 你的魔力真的好犀利
- MayDay
切一塊 下次再也不敢放膽愛
誰知道主歌才一半 橋段都還沒唱出來
就突然 你的出現爆破了悲哀
難道 我又我又初戀了 不可能 我又我又初戀了
可是 真的真的初戀了 這一種FEEL
我又 真的真的初戀了
我愛你 你愛我 我們再也找不到藉口
就像是 第一次 一起飛著愛情的自由
我愛你 你愛我 我們再也不需要藉口
又一次 初戀了 就算降講有一點荒繆 誰在乎喔
我吃了鐵牛運功散 因為我內傷好犀利
好犀利 你的魔力真的好犀利
- MayDay
I refuse to work
I must say I have thoroughly enjoyed my one week of "I refuse to work" break. Spent it having lots of coffee, movies, chill out sessions, doing random things I never used to do, shopping, finishing a book in one sitting and attending a rock concert! It's been so fun, I think I could get addicted! But then again, It's Monday again and I need to restart on my work. Need to be more focused and finish up everything so I can really relax after it all!
Nowadays I have so many choreographies and steps in my head, I just activate muscle memory during actual rehearsal and then throw it away....to activate muscle memory once again for another rehearsal...and the cycle repeats itself! Maybe I should test myself to see what's the limit to my brain's hard drive ey?
Oh well....let's push it til 25th May and then to 7th 8th June!
And just for fun, I'm leaving you all with this picture. I SOOOOOOO lurveeee it!
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Nowadays I have so many choreographies and steps in my head, I just activate muscle memory during actual rehearsal and then throw it away....to activate muscle memory once again for another rehearsal...and the cycle repeats itself! Maybe I should test myself to see what's the limit to my brain's hard drive ey?
Oh well....let's push it til 25th May and then to 7th 8th June!
And just for fun, I'm leaving you all with this picture. I SOOOOOOO lurveeee it!
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Friday, April 25, 2008
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Be your own movie
Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life.
Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking.
Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice.
And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.
They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.
Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking.
Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice.
And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.
They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.
Monday, April 21, 2008
Missing factor
Been pondering about my dance alot the past few nights. It's a question that always repeats itself time after time, year after year.
Am I just a mediocre dancer?
Can I find that "missing" factor to become a good if not great dancer?
Why do some dancers stand out so well and catch everyone's eye?
Why Can't I do the same? I blend in and fade into the background too easily.
What is my Dance personality? My character? Do I even have one now?
I will always remember what pat once said a long time back when he was asked to say a few words about his dancers. "ZZ, hmmm she is always there. Always consistent, never giving any problems. She may not stand out but she is the one who will get all her steps right and support the group."
How do I go that extra mile to become great? To be acknowledged? To get noticed? Other than to keep improving myself technique and style wise....
How?
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Upset at myself for feeling like this.
Happy for others, but upset for myself.
Wake up, girl!
Am I just a mediocre dancer?
Can I find that "missing" factor to become a good if not great dancer?
Why do some dancers stand out so well and catch everyone's eye?
Why Can't I do the same? I blend in and fade into the background too easily.
What is my Dance personality? My character? Do I even have one now?
I will always remember what pat once said a long time back when he was asked to say a few words about his dancers. "ZZ, hmmm she is always there. Always consistent, never giving any problems. She may not stand out but she is the one who will get all her steps right and support the group."
How do I go that extra mile to become great? To be acknowledged? To get noticed? Other than to keep improving myself technique and style wise....
How?
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Upset at myself for feeling like this.
Happy for others, but upset for myself.
Wake up, girl!
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Maple Syrup-ed
I am Maple Syrup-ed!
Yes, I have just joined a second spree! Mwahaha....I am determined to get those bling earrings.
Now, just one more spree for those dresses! Hahahaha
I am retail therapy-ing so much! But the items won't even arrive til minimum 2 weeks later.
Oh well...Happy Happy.
I don't have to teach any schools the next 2 weeks!!!
Yes, I have just joined a second spree! Mwahaha....I am determined to get those bling earrings.
Now, just one more spree for those dresses! Hahahaha
I am retail therapy-ing so much! But the items won't even arrive til minimum 2 weeks later.
Oh well...Happy Happy.
I don't have to teach any schools the next 2 weeks!!!
Friday, April 18, 2008
Reborn Spree-er
I'm a reborn spree-er. Just placed orders for DRUGSTORE spree. Buying their Philosophy skincare products which are supposed to do wonders for the skin.
I think the last time I online spree-ed was back in July 2007. Haha...ok not counting the dvds from YesAsia.
So here are my current "lusting after" items....am waiting for a spree to open so I can get them! =P
I think too much stress and overwork makes me want to do retail therapy.
I think the last time I online spree-ed was back in July 2007. Haha...ok not counting the dvds from YesAsia.
So here are my current "lusting after" items....am waiting for a spree to open so I can get them! =P
I think too much stress and overwork makes me want to do retail therapy.
I love this, can wear it for weddings and parties!
I wonder if I can club in this? Been looking around for a dress/top like this ever since last year. Which is nicer? The green or the white?
Something I've been looking around for as well since last year. But I'm not very sure if i can carry it off.
Now that I've got multiple ear holes on one ear, I can buy earrings like this!! Super chio and bling can!
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Risk and be free
To laugh is to risk appearing the fool.
To cry is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach out for another is to risk involvement.
To express feelings is to risk exposing your truer self.
To try is to risk failure.
Risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
The person who risks nothing does nothing, has nothing, is nothing.
You may avoid suffering and sorrow but you cannot learn, change, feel, grow, love, live. Chained by your certitude, you have forfeited your freedom.
The person who risks is free.
To cry is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach out for another is to risk involvement.
To express feelings is to risk exposing your truer self.
To try is to risk failure.
Risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
The person who risks nothing does nothing, has nothing, is nothing.
You may avoid suffering and sorrow but you cannot learn, change, feel, grow, love, live. Chained by your certitude, you have forfeited your freedom.
The person who risks is free.
Warrior of light ( Wake Up Tiger)
Every warrior of the light
has been afraid to enter a combat.
Every warrior of the light
has betrayed and lied in the past.
Every warrior of the light
has lost faith in the future.
Every warrior of the light
has trodden a path which was not his own.
Every warrior of the light
has suffered because of unimportant things.
Every warrior of the light
has doubted that he is a warrior of the light.
Every warrior of the light
has failed in his spiritual obligations.
Every warrior of the light
has said yes when he meant no.
Every warrior of the light
has hurt someone he loved.
That is why he is a warrior of the light.
He has endured all this, and not lost the hope to improve.
[Paulo Coelho]
has been afraid to enter a combat.
Every warrior of the light
has betrayed and lied in the past.
Every warrior of the light
has lost faith in the future.
Every warrior of the light
has trodden a path which was not his own.
Every warrior of the light
has suffered because of unimportant things.
Every warrior of the light
has doubted that he is a warrior of the light.
Every warrior of the light
has failed in his spiritual obligations.
Every warrior of the light
has said yes when he meant no.
Every warrior of the light
has hurt someone he loved.
That is why he is a warrior of the light.
He has endured all this, and not lost the hope to improve.
[Paulo Coelho]
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
I is Happy
Despite all of my distractions this past few weeks,
I somehow managed to finish 2 dance items for the upcoming CACTUS production today! So now the official count is 3 down, 3 more to go!
I also managed to clean up Whitley Speech Day item and made them collapse at the end of rehearsal, which has never happened before until today!
I is HAPPY with today. It's a good day.
Just a bit torn between feeling a tad sad for a lack of company this week..*winks* and feeling a little glad because I will have more free time to take a breather from work and stuff.
But still.
I is HAPPY with today.
I somehow managed to finish 2 dance items for the upcoming CACTUS production today! So now the official count is 3 down, 3 more to go!
I also managed to clean up Whitley Speech Day item and made them collapse at the end of rehearsal, which has never happened before until today!
I is HAPPY with today. It's a good day.
Just a bit torn between feeling a tad sad for a lack of company this week..*winks* and feeling a little glad because I will have more free time to take a breather from work and stuff.
But still.
I is HAPPY with today.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Who appreciates alternative rock?
"Collide"
When I came here there was more.
Now I've come back to destroy,
And I've got nothing left,
And it's a shame what we've become,
When we hurt the ones we love,
And it's a place I can not go,
Anymore.
When we collide we lose ourselves.
When we collide we break in two,
And as we push and we shove and we hurt the ones we love,
It's a hard mistake.
When we collide,
We break.
When the cold comes crashing down,
And the fight lost what it's about.
I could tell that you'd left.
It's a shame what we've become,
When we hurt the ones we love.
It's a place I can not go,
Anymore.
When we collide we lose ourselves.
When we collide we break in two,
And as we push and we shove and we hurt the ones we love,
It's a hard mistake.
When we collide,
When we collide.
It's a hard mistake,
When we collide.
It's a mistake,
When we collide we lose ourselves,
When we collide we break in two,
And as we push and we shove and we hurt the ones we love,
It's a hard mistake,
When we collide,
When we collide.
It's a hard mistake,
When we collide, we break,
We break
-Dishwalla
When I came here there was more.
Now I've come back to destroy,
And I've got nothing left,
And it's a shame what we've become,
When we hurt the ones we love,
And it's a place I can not go,
Anymore.
When we collide we lose ourselves.
When we collide we break in two,
And as we push and we shove and we hurt the ones we love,
It's a hard mistake.
When we collide,
We break.
When the cold comes crashing down,
And the fight lost what it's about.
I could tell that you'd left.
It's a shame what we've become,
When we hurt the ones we love.
It's a place I can not go,
Anymore.
When we collide we lose ourselves.
When we collide we break in two,
And as we push and we shove and we hurt the ones we love,
It's a hard mistake.
When we collide,
When we collide.
It's a hard mistake,
When we collide.
It's a mistake,
When we collide we lose ourselves,
When we collide we break in two,
And as we push and we shove and we hurt the ones we love,
It's a hard mistake,
When we collide,
When we collide.
It's a hard mistake,
When we collide, we break,
We break
-Dishwalla
Friday, April 11, 2008
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
專屬天使
Currently addicted to this song....blardy hell, i want to go back to writing lyrics.
專屬天使 - TANK
You very sweet la, I love you.
Those few sentences brought some encouragement into my very stressed up life.
At least its not all for nothing.
*Muacks*
專屬天使 - TANK
我不會怪你 對我的偽裝
天使在人間是該藏好翅膀
人們愚蠢魯莽 而妳纖細善良
怎能讓妳為了我被碰傷
小小的手掌 厚厚的溫暖
妳總能平復我不安的夜晚
不敢想的夢想 透過妳的眼光
我才看見它原來在前方
沒有誰能把妳搶離我身旁
妳是我的專屬天使
唯我能獨佔
沒有誰能取代妳在我心上
擁有一個專屬天使
我哪裡還需要別的願望
小小的手掌 大大的力量
我一定也會像妳一樣飛翔
妳想去的地方 就是我的方向
有我保護笑容儘管燦爛
沒有誰能把妳搶離我身旁
妳是我的專屬天使
唯我能獨佔
沒有誰能取代妳在我心上
擁有一個專屬天使
我哪裡還需要別的願望
要不是妳出現 我一定還在沉睡
絕望的以為 生命只有黑夜
沒有誰能把妳搶離我身旁
妳是我的專屬天使
唯我能獨佔
沒有誰能取代妳在我心上
擁有一個專屬天使
我哪裡還需要別的願望
You very sweet la, I love you.
Those few sentences brought some encouragement into my very stressed up life.
At least its not all for nothing.
*Muacks*
Monday, April 7, 2008
Women are the new men?
I love Wacking.
Although I feel like a big baboon swinging my arms anyhow.
Need to go polish up those shoulder joints' mobility!
I survived first rehearsal for wacking and hiphop item for studio wu recital. Think I'm really going to enjoy myself. Haven't paid to dance in an item for a long while hahahha....I'm usually getting paid. So that's cool.
Let's Dance like Men, Girls! Whee..
I've been very distracted lately. Sigh, good or bad I'm also not too sure. Only good thing probably is that -at least- I'm happily distracted.
Give me a sign.
Although I feel like a big baboon swinging my arms anyhow.
Need to go polish up those shoulder joints' mobility!
I survived first rehearsal for wacking and hiphop item for studio wu recital. Think I'm really going to enjoy myself. Haven't paid to dance in an item for a long while hahahha....I'm usually getting paid. So that's cool.
Let's Dance like Men, Girls! Whee..
I've been very distracted lately. Sigh, good or bad I'm also not too sure. Only good thing probably is that -at least- I'm happily distracted.
Give me a sign.
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
Too much Jazz and too little HipHop
So i mentioned in a previous post that I felt I had improved in strength flexibility and overall Jazz form and technique. Yes, I've been doing a lot more jazz of late and also getting better inspirations for my Jazz classes as compared to HipHop. Have not attended any hiphop classes since -I don't know when- , thus.....
I managed to squeeze time out for Bryan's class today after going missing for 3-4 weeks. I think I was horribly off form, yes I can get the steps but the feel didn't come at all and Bryan's classes you need a lot of feel. His feel. *Pulls Hair*
It's just one of those days where I feel like I've back-slided or just stayed stagnant while everyone else is pushing forward and improving so much. This pretty much happens when all I do is teach and give without getting any input myself. Not to mention some of the kids are major walking attitudes.
Studio Wu Recital in 2 months. Need to really buck up and push myself. This is partly the reason as to why I decided to do recital despite my packed schedule. I need to PUSH myself further. I want to work with Bryan and I want to go up another level.
I miss performing just for the sake of performing.
Wish me luck.
I managed to squeeze time out for Bryan's class today after going missing for 3-4 weeks. I think I was horribly off form, yes I can get the steps but the feel didn't come at all and Bryan's classes you need a lot of feel. His feel. *Pulls Hair*
It's just one of those days where I feel like I've back-slided or just stayed stagnant while everyone else is pushing forward and improving so much. This pretty much happens when all I do is teach and give without getting any input myself. Not to mention some of the kids are major walking attitudes.
Studio Wu Recital in 2 months. Need to really buck up and push myself. This is partly the reason as to why I decided to do recital despite my packed schedule. I need to PUSH myself further. I want to work with Bryan and I want to go up another level.
I miss performing just for the sake of performing.
Wish me luck.
Sunday, March 30, 2008
I want MALA
I want to eat MALA Huoguo.
Tina are you reading this?
hahahah free on thursday night or not?
P.S. I actually taught from 11am to 7pm today non stop.....
Tina are you reading this?
hahahah free on thursday night or not?
P.S. I actually taught from 11am to 7pm today non stop.....
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Alive and loving it!
After my short absence and writing very little in my previous few posts....I'm back. For a while...before things start to go into crazy mode.
Firstly, wanna wish awi a quick recovery. He dislocated his big toe while attempting to do fouettes during tonight's class. I am really amazed at how he can be so calm and quiet about it and still smile and say "I'm ok." One moment he was in the studio, the next leo was coming in telling us awi needs to go hospital for a dislocated toe. In between that, no one noticed him going out...
Get well soon!
So, I finally attended Urban mix tech classes after disappearing for 3 weeks. Was pleasantly surprised to find that instead of feeling all weak and rusty, my strength and flexibility improved ever that slightly. So it was not a very good turning day but overall I felt alright. Not wobbly and out of breath due to lack of practise and conditioning. Seldom do I feel so good after warm ups and an hour of extreme jazz combinations and choreography. Yes I was dead tired and my back acted up after 4 hours but I did not feel like shit.
And it struck me suddenly as I sat in front of my pc after a hot shower that I really love dancing. No matter how stressed or shitty i feel after a bad or ridiculous session, just a small step of improvement lifts me up by that much and I see that all is actually not lost. I try my best each day and I am grateful that I can turn and I can jump and I can move to music and in the end, I always find comfort in dance.
I may complain of the little issues that come along with the work I do but at the end of the day, I am still just a girl who really really loves what she is doing and also very thankful that she has been allowed the opportunities to pursue it. How many people can say that?
Thank you mommy and daddy...
And like a friend said, " always appreciate every moment you stand on the stage"
I feel alive when I go on stage. What more is there to ask for?
Firstly, wanna wish awi a quick recovery. He dislocated his big toe while attempting to do fouettes during tonight's class. I am really amazed at how he can be so calm and quiet about it and still smile and say "I'm ok." One moment he was in the studio, the next leo was coming in telling us awi needs to go hospital for a dislocated toe. In between that, no one noticed him going out...
Get well soon!
So, I finally attended Urban mix tech classes after disappearing for 3 weeks. Was pleasantly surprised to find that instead of feeling all weak and rusty, my strength and flexibility improved ever that slightly. So it was not a very good turning day but overall I felt alright. Not wobbly and out of breath due to lack of practise and conditioning. Seldom do I feel so good after warm ups and an hour of extreme jazz combinations and choreography. Yes I was dead tired and my back acted up after 4 hours but I did not feel like shit.
And it struck me suddenly as I sat in front of my pc after a hot shower that I really love dancing. No matter how stressed or shitty i feel after a bad or ridiculous session, just a small step of improvement lifts me up by that much and I see that all is actually not lost. I try my best each day and I am grateful that I can turn and I can jump and I can move to music and in the end, I always find comfort in dance.
I may complain of the little issues that come along with the work I do but at the end of the day, I am still just a girl who really really loves what she is doing and also very thankful that she has been allowed the opportunities to pursue it. How many people can say that?
Thank you mommy and daddy...
And like a friend said, " always appreciate every moment you stand on the stage"
I feel alive when I go on stage. What more is there to ask for?
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Friday, March 21, 2008
Pep talk to myself
I'm going to start finding inspiration and that extra push from within. I must not escape from the piling workload in front of me anymore! Stop telling myself that I'm drained, dry or just uninspired! Draw strength and creativity from within like I know I can and work hard. The faster I finish each item, the less stressed I'll be a month from now! When you start something, the ball starts rolling and things will work out slowly.
When frustrated, call a friend to bitch.
Okay!
When frustrated, call a friend to bitch.
Okay!
Thursday, March 20, 2008
...
Upset.
Same old thing once again.
Same phucking depressing feeling again.
Frustrated.
I'm not the only one.
Same old thing once again.
Same phucking depressing feeling again.
Frustrated.
I'm not the only one.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
I want new hair
I want to dye my hair chocolate brown or black and add pink colored waist length hair extensions to the bottom half.
How does that sound?
I probably need to rebond it as well.....it's flying all over the place...grrr.
Now I just need to let that ear cartilage piercing heal up before i get chemicals on it!
How does that sound?
I probably need to rebond it as well.....it's flying all over the place...grrr.
Now I just need to let that ear cartilage piercing heal up before i get chemicals on it!
Monday, March 17, 2008
Random Pics
Grandma's Birthday Celebration at our house.
She looks very good at 80+ horrr! I want to be like her when I grow old!
Fruit Cake bought by me! Breadtalk cakes are a tad expensive...
Bali Snap Shots
Monkey King sitting like a true king!
He has nothing to hide!
It's not a statue or a carving.
It's a real human being.
Rice Padi Fields of Bali
P.S.
I have almost ditched my "A.D.I.M.L" project.
It's way past it's sell date.
I'm a horrible blogger hor...
Friday, March 14, 2008
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Ache
And I once again felt that painful ache in my heart....
Just a glimpse of your photo...
It was sudden, It was random.
It's been a while.
Just a glimpse of your photo...
It was sudden, It was random.
It's been a while.
Monday, March 10, 2008
Friday, March 7, 2008
Perfect Harmony
I know it's an old song, but I finally found out the title and I'm Happy. Hahahah
I love the female singer's hair in this. Tempted to go try, maybe the next time i head to Japan!
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Monday, March 3, 2008
U.G.L.Y
Teaching can be quite frustrating at times.
I sometimes feel like a babysitter yelling after my kids to pay attention.
You can also never please everyone in a class.
I wonder if I'm a dance instructor or am I a clown or a compromiser?
I'm starting to get a little tired physically and mentally. Feel like my inspirations are slowly dying out and it's so hard to squeeze out steps.
Did I take on too many jobs?
Weak, tired, with bad skin and bad hair.
U.G.L.Y.
That's me.
I sometimes feel like a babysitter yelling after my kids to pay attention.
You can also never please everyone in a class.
I wonder if I'm a dance instructor or am I a clown or a compromiser?
I'm starting to get a little tired physically and mentally. Feel like my inspirations are slowly dying out and it's so hard to squeeze out steps.
Did I take on too many jobs?
Weak, tired, with bad skin and bad hair.
U.G.L.Y.
That's me.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Poisoned
Back From Bali
Down with food poisoning
Luckily it's a mild one which only lasted 1 day.
Laid in the hotel bed the whole of my last day in Bali with horrible stomach pains. Wanted to go to the beach to catch some sun and relax for a bit but bleahhh cannot.
Stayed at an area that was not in the heart of all the bustling action and activity so I was pretty bored the whole trip. Did not manage to go water rafting, neither did i get to learn to surf.
The next time i go, I'm bringing along some friends and i'm going to stay in Kuta. Hahah...
Back to hell schedule in Singapore for the next 4-5 months!
Down with food poisoning
Luckily it's a mild one which only lasted 1 day.
Laid in the hotel bed the whole of my last day in Bali with horrible stomach pains. Wanted to go to the beach to catch some sun and relax for a bit but bleahhh cannot.
Stayed at an area that was not in the heart of all the bustling action and activity so I was pretty bored the whole trip. Did not manage to go water rafting, neither did i get to learn to surf.
The next time i go, I'm bringing along some friends and i'm going to stay in Kuta. Hahah...
Back to hell schedule in Singapore for the next 4-5 months!
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Update
Retail therapy!!
I bought a super chio grey/silver satin adidas jacket from adicolor!!
Quite ex but I love it so much!!!
News Flash
Will be away in Bali from the 22nd to the 27th of this month.
Seeya all in a week's time!
Am going to learn to surf and see if I meet any cute Jap boys along the way!
=P
Performance Publicity
Jitterbugs Birthday Bash and Open house
March 8 & 9
Performance at Millenia Walk
3 - 4pm
All day open house with free classes
10am - 6pm
Am going to learn to surf and see if I meet any cute Jap boys along the way!
=P
Performance Publicity
Jitterbugs Birthday Bash and Open house
March 8 & 9
Performance at Millenia Walk
3 - 4pm
All day open house with free classes
10am - 6pm
Thursday, February 14, 2008
V day
Happy Valentine's/Friendship Day to all my lovely friends!!!
I'm free the whole day.
Anyone wanna date me?
(",)V
I'm free the whole day.
Anyone wanna date me?
(",)V
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Gray eyes are sexy!
I finally bought gray contact lenses!
After the last upsetting incident of trying to buy contact lenses online and having it get lost in the post, I refrained from getting lenses until now.
Did not buy them online but instead got them at my local optical shop. A little more expensive but at least they go directly into my hands after I pay for them.
It's not as comfortable as the normal ones I wear but I really like the colour. =P
I know I'm sitting on the "One day in my life" post. I promise I'll get it up by the end of the week. Got some really nice photos to share so I will do it soon. Work just started after the CNY break and it's already hectic again.
Got a performance come March 8! Busy rehearsing for it now....feels good to perform again! =)
Need to settle things for the CAC musical in May as well as items for Urban Mix Concert in July...I need another day to sit down and plan out my stuff...!!
*breathe!*
After the last upsetting incident of trying to buy contact lenses online and having it get lost in the post, I refrained from getting lenses until now.
Did not buy them online but instead got them at my local optical shop. A little more expensive but at least they go directly into my hands after I pay for them.
It's not as comfortable as the normal ones I wear but I really like the colour. =P
I know I'm sitting on the "One day in my life" post. I promise I'll get it up by the end of the week. Got some really nice photos to share so I will do it soon. Work just started after the CNY break and it's already hectic again.
Got a performance come March 8! Busy rehearsing for it now....feels good to perform again! =)
Need to settle things for the CAC musical in May as well as items for Urban Mix Concert in July...I need another day to sit down and plan out my stuff...!!
*breathe!*
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Jazz PRU Perf Preview
Whee...the dancers look super neat wor hahaha in the photos!
So it worked out fine in the end guys and girls!
More photos once I get them.
Await my "A.D.I.M.L" post as well.
Now for Family reunion steamboat.
Yum.
Gong Xi Fa Cai
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